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Showing posts with label as a reader. Show all posts

24 August 2026

a menstruation, mail, &musubi monday w/michelle obama

NOT a library loaner
sorry library
i paid big money for this one

[there will obviously be a Full Feature when i finish the book]






















[end note added 25aug2026]



i stopped using tampons when we lived in korea,
cause they were impossible to find
*blech*
once we moved back stateside,
i've had the hardest time finding tampons i can tolerate,
cause the ones i used to use
stopped working up there,
it's a whole thing,
but i recently started using this brand for exercising
and it's alright.
the actual shape of the applicator is better than the picture shows
it has like a bulbous sorta shape,
so like,
i dunno exactly how to describe it
but you can like feel when you've passed the bulbous bit
and it sorta "pops" in
*shrug*
it's nice, as far as tampon insertion is concerned, lol.
my one big gripe is that fucking pull tab, y'all!
yes, i do feel like the fucking thing is gonna get stuck inside me,
cause that fucking string is gonna break,
but the string has not yet broken
"처보, 여기요."
*knocks on wood*

05 August 2026

back in 2019, i called a fellow millennial's mortgage, on an apartment complex that he'd recently bought, 'DEBT,' and he looked at me like i was the stupidest person in the whole world, and then one beat later, he looked at me as if he could punch me in my face, lol.

Free your mind of the idea of deserving,
of the idea of earning,
and you will begin to be able to think.
—Ursula K. Le Guin, The Dispossessed [as quoted on page 361]


DEBT: THE FIRST 5,000 YEARS
by David Graeber
[332 Gr]

this book is a library loaner
so this is what i do [combined w/below pic] when i need to take a lot of notes
but the book is not mine to mark up
*yawn*






of all the things that i love about the bodybuddy/lifemate, the single, greatest one (the one that just gets me so hot) is his big brain, and his big brain loves to read; it reads a lot and fast. i would consider him to be a better reader than i, in both speed and comprehension, and so, when he picks out his books on our jaunts to the library, i oftentimes end up reading one of the books that he chooses, cause, as i'm explaining, rn, his big brain is so attractive.

anyway, this book, Debt: The First 5,000 Years by David Graeber, is a the bodybuddy/lifemate pick and a highly-recommended read, especially if you're a woman. 

i was also introduced to two words with which i was pastly unfamiliar: dragooning [p 314] and prestidigitation [p 343], and they'll be presented below with their respective usage.

also, this is a book about debt over the course of a somewhat knowable human history, and the book works chronologically from past to present, so read the page numbers to understand the lateness or newness of the actual timeline of human history from which the quote was pulled.

also, keep in mind that this is a book of history, which means that a lot of these quotes are from someone who has written something, but since i cannot transcribe the entire book, here (as much as i wish i could), the quotes are completely out of context, and the context is an anthropological study of human societies not an economics theory from economists who largely do not understand human history.  



[begin quotes]


The definitive anthropological work on barter,
by Caroline Humphrey, of Cambridge,
could not be more definitive in its conclusions:
"No example of a barter economy, pure and simple,
has ever been described,
let alone the emergence from it of money; 
all available ethnography suggests that there never has been such a thing." 
p 29



L. Frank Baum's book The Wonderful Wizard of Oz, which appeared in 1900,
is often held to be a parable for the Populist campaign of William Jennings Bryan,
who twice ran for president on the Free Silver platform—
vowing to replace the gold standard
with a bimetallic system
that would allow the free creation of silver money alongside gold.
As with the Greenbackers,
one of the main constituencies for the movement was debtors:
particularly, Midwestern farm families such as Dorothy's,
who had been facing a massive wave of foreclosures during the severe recession of the 1890s.
According to the Populist reading,
the Wicked Witches of the East and West represent the East and West Coast bankers ...
the Scarecrow represented the farmers
(who didn't have the brains to avoid the debt trap),
the Tin Woodsman was the industrial proletariat
(who didn't have the heart to act in solidarity with the farmers),
the Cowardly Lion represented the political class
(who didn't' have the courage to intervene).
The yellow brick road, silver slippers, emerald city, and hapless Wizard
presumably speak for themselves.
"Oz" is of course the standard abbreviation for "ounce." 
pp 52-53



[in-book quote]
"Up in our country we are human!" said the hunter.
"And since we are human we help each other.
We don't like to hear anybody say thanks for that.
What I get today you may get tomorrow.
Up here we say that by gifts one makes slaves and by whips one makes dogs."
[new para]
The last line is something of an anthropological classic,
and similar statements about the refusal to calculate credits and debits
can be found throughout the anthropological literature on egalitarian hunting societies.
p 79



[in-book quote]
Always owe somebody something,
then he will be forever praying God to grant you a good, long and blessed life.
Fearing to lose what you owe him,
he will always be saying good things about you in every sort of company;
he will be constantly acquiring new lenders for you,
so that you can borrow to pay him back,
filling his ditch with other men's spoil. 
p 125



The only appropriate payment for the gift of a woman is the gift of another woman;
in the meantime, all one can do is acknowledge the outstanding debt.
...
Only a human could ever be considered equivalent to another human.
All the more so since, in the case of marriage,
we are speaking of something even more valuable than one human life:
we are speaking of a human life that also has the capacity to generate new lives.
[emphasis mine]
...
Money, then, begins, as Rospabe ́ himself puts it, "as a substitute for life."
One might call it the recognition of a life-debt. 
p 132 & 133



This is the profound truth of the blood-feud.
No one can ever really forgive the man who killed his brother because every brother is unique.
Nothing could substitute—
not even some other man given the same name and status as your brother,
or a concubine who will bear a son who will be named after your brother,
or a ghost-wife who will bear a child pledged to some day avenge his death.
[new para]
In a human economy, each person is unique, and of incomparable value,
because each is a nexus [emphasis mine] of relations with others.
...
The Lele example gave us a hint:
to make a human being an object of exchange,
one woman equivalent for another, for example,
requires first of all ripping her from her context;
that is, tearing her away from that web of relations
that makes her the unique conflux of relations that she is,
and thus,
into a generic value capable of being added and subtracted and used as a means to measure debt.
This requires a certain violence.
p 158 & 159



First-year Roman law students, for instance,
were made to memorize the following definition:
slavery
is an institution according to the law of nations
whereby one person falls under the property rights of another,
contrary to nature.
p 167



We might say, then, that money introduced a democratization of desire.
Insofar as everyone wanted money, everyone, high and low, was pursuing the same promiscuous substance. 
But even more:
increasingly, they did not just want money.
They needed it.
This was a profound change.
In the Homeric world, as in most human economies,
we hear almost no discussion of those things considered necessary to human life
(food, shelter, clothing)
because it is simply assumed that everybody has them.
A man with no possessions could, at the very least, become a retainer in some rich man's household.
Even slaves had enough to eat. 
p 190



Rulers are like shepherds.
We like to think of them as benevolently tending their flocks,
but what do shepherds ultimately do with sheep?
They kill and eat them,
or sell the meat for money.
...
It's only the existence of money, Socrates suggests,
that allows us to imagine that words like "power" and "interest" refer to universal realities
that can be pursued in their own right,
let alone that all pursuits are really ultimately the pursuit of power, advantage, or self-interest.
The question, he said, is how to ensure that those who hold political office
will do so not for gain,
but rather for honor.
p 196



As for dominium, the word is derived from dominus, meaning "master" or "slave-owner,"
but ultimately from domus, meaning "house" or "household."
It's of course related to the English term "domestic,"
which even now can be used either to mean "pertaining to private life"
or to refer to a servant who cleans the house.
Domus overlaps somewhat in meaning with familia, "family"—
but, as proponents of "family values" might be interested to know,
familia itself ultimately derives from the word famulus, meaning "slave."
A family was originally all those people under the domestic authority of a paterfamilias,
and that authority was, in early Roman law at least,
conceived as absolute.
A man did not have total power over his wife,
since she was still to some degree under the protection of her own father,
but his children, slaves and other dependents were his to do with as he wanted—
at least in early Roman law, he was perfectly free to whip, torture, or sell them.
A father could even execute his children, provided he found them to have committed capital crimes.
With his slaves, he didn't even need that excuse.
pp 200-201



We are so used to the idea of "having" rights—
that rights are something one can possess—
that we rarely think about what this might actually mean.
In fact (as Medieval jurists were well aware), one man's right is simply another's obligation.
My right to free speech is others' obligation not to punish me for speaking;
my right to a trial by jury of my peers is the responsibility of others to maintain a system of jury duty.
p 205



This is why I developed the concept of human economies:
ones in which what is considered really important about human beings
is the fact that they are each a unique nexus of relations with others—
therefore, that no one could ever be considered an exact equivalent to anything or anyone else.
In a human economy,
money is not a way of buying or trading human beings,
but a way of expressing just how much one cannot do so. 
p 208



As many an African proverb emphasizes:
a proper king has no relatives either, or at least,
he acts as if he does not.
In other words,
king and slave are mirror images,
in that unlike normal human beings who are defined by their commitments to others,
they are defined only by relations of power.
They are as close to perfectly isolated, alienated beings as one can possibly become. 
p 209


 
Mo Di, the founder of Mohism, took that first approach.
He turned the concept of li, profit, into something more like "social utility,"
and then he attempted to demonstrate that war itself is, by definition, an unprofitable activity.
p 241



How do you compare two things with no common qualities? 
His [Ghazali's] conclusion: 
it can only be done by comparing both to a third thing with no qualities at all. 
...
From this it also follows that lending money at interest must be illegitimate,
since it means using money as an end in itself: 
"Money is not created to earn money." 
In fact, he says, 
"in relation to other goods, dirhams and dinars are like prepositions in a sentence," 
words that, as the grammarians inform us, are used to give meaning to other words, 
but can only do so because they have no meaning in themselves. 
Money is thus a unit of measure that provides a means of assessing the value of goods, 
but also one that operates as such only if it stays in constant motion. 
To enter into monetary transactions in order to obtain even more money, ... would be, 
according to Ghazali, 
the equivalent of kidnapping the postman. 
p 281



When Aristotle argued that coins are merely social conventions, 
the term he used was symbolon
from which our own word "symbol" is derived. 
Symbolon was originally the Greek word for "tally"—
an object broken in half to mark a contract or agreement, or marked and broken to record a debt. 
So our word "symbol"
traces back originally to objects broken to record debt contracts of one sort or another. 
This is striking enough. 
What's really remarkable though, is that the contemporary Chinese word for "symbol," 
fu, or fu hao
has almost exactly the same origin. 
p 298



While we are used to assuming 
that the Mexican population was devastated simply as an effect of newly introduced European diseases, 
contemporary observers felt that the dragooning of the newly conquered natives 
to work in the mines was at least equally responsible. 
p 314



The story of the origins of capitalism, then, 
is not the story of the gradual destruction of traditional communities 
by the impersonal power of the market. 
It is, rather, 
the story of how an economy of credit was converted into an economy of interest; 
of the gradual transformation of moral networks by the intrusion of the impersonal—
and often vindictive—
power of the state. 
p 332



The criminalization of debt, then, was the criminalization of the very basis of human society. 
It cannot be overemphasized that in a small community, 
everyone normally was both lender and borrower. 
p 334



The reader will recall 
that the Bank of England was created 
when a consortium of forty London and Edinburgh merchants—
mostly already creditors to the crown—
offered King William III a £1.2 million loan to help finance his war against France. 
In doing so, 
they also convinced him to allow them to return to form a corporation 
with a monopoly on the issuance of banknotes—
which were, in effect, promissory notes for the money the kind now owed them. 
This was the first independent national central bank, 
and it became the clearinghouse for debts owed between smaller banks; 
the notes soon developed into the first European national paper currency. 
pp 339-340



In Goethe's Faust (1808), 
he actually has his hero ... pay a visit to the Holy Roman Emperor. 
The Emperor is sinking under the weight of endless debts 
that he has piled up paying for the extravagant pleasure of his court. 
Faust and his assistant, Mephistopheles, 
convince him that he can pay off his creditors by creating paper money. 
It's represented as an act of pure prestidigitation. 
p 343



[in-book quote] 
The root of the whole evil was the so called patron or "peonage" system ... 
by which the employee, forced to buy all his supplies at the employer's store, 
is kept hopelessly in debt, 
while by law he is unable to leave his employment until his debt is paid ... 
The peon is thus, as often as not, a de facto slave; 
and since in remoter regions of the vast continent there is no effective government, 
he is wholly at the mercy of his master.
p 349



It is the secret scandal of capitalism that at no point has it been organized primarily around free labor. 
The conquest of the Americas began with mass enslavement, 
then gradually settled into various forms of debt peonage, African slavery, and "indentured service"—
that is, the use of contract labor, workers who had received cash in advance 
and were thus bound for five-, seven-, or ten-year terms to pay it back.
p 350



Marxists have questioned whether wage labor is ultimately free in any sense 
(since someone with nothing to sell but his or her body 
cannot in any sense be considered a genuinely free agent), 
but they still tend to assume that free wage labor is the basis of capitalism. 
Our dominant image of the origins of capitalism 
continues to be the English workingman toiling in the factories of the industrial revolution, 
and it is assumed this image can be traced forward to Silicon Valley, 
with a straight line in between. 
All those millions of slaves and serfs and coolies and debt peons disappear, 
or if we must speak of them, we write them off as temporary bumps along the road. 
... 
In most of medieval northern Europe, 
wage labor had been mainly a lifestyle phenomenon.
p 351



Speaking as someone brought up in that sort of working-class family, ... 
I can attest to the degree that, 
for those who spend most of their waking hours working at someone else's orders, 
the ability to pull out a wallet full of banknotes 
that are unconditionally one's own 
can be a compelling form of freedom.
pp 354-355



On August 15, 1971, 
United States President Richard Nixon 
announced that foreign-held U.S. dollars 
would no longer be convertible into gold—
thus stripping away the last vestige of the international gold standard. 
p 361



For instance, while technically, 
the Fed cannot lend money directly to the government by buying Treasury Bonds, 
everyone knows that doing so indirectly is one of its primary reasons for being. 
And insofar as the government issues T-bonds, 
it actually is, in one sense, printing money; 
circulating debt tokens that—
as one apparently paradoxical effect of Nixon's floating the dollar—
have now themselves come to replace gold as the world's reserve currency; 
that is, as the ultimate store of value in the world, 
yielding the United States enormous economic advantages. 
[new para] 
Meanwhile, the U.S. debt remains, as it has been since 1790, a war debt: 
the United States continues to spend more on its military 
than do all other nations on earth put together ...
p 365



The U.S. military, unlike any other, 
maintains a doctrine of global power projection: 
that it should have the ability, 
through roughly 800 overseas military bases, 
to intervene with deadly force absolutely anywhere on the planet.
... 
Again, we are talking about symbolic power.
p 366



How much did Hussein's decision to buck the dollar 
really weigh into the U.S. decision to depose him?
p 368



If history holds true, 
an age of virtual money 
should mean a movement away from war, empire-building, slavery and debt peonage 
(waged or otherwise), 
and toward the creation of some sort of overarching institutions, 
global in scale, 
to protect debtors. 
What we have seen so far is the opposite.
p 368



"debt imperialism"
p 369



It is no coincidence that the new phase of American debt imperialism 
has also been accompanied by the rise of the evangelical right, who—
in defiance of almost all previously existing Christian theology—
have enthusiastically embraced the doctrine of "supply-side economics," 
that creating money and effectively giving it to the rich 
is the most Biblically appropriate way to bring about national prosperity. 
p 377



Even if we are at the beginning of the turn of a very long historical cycle, 
it's still largely up to us to determine how it's going to turn out.
p 383



As I pointed out in the very beginning: 
the difference between owing someone a favor and owing someone a debt 
is that the amount of a debt can be precisely calculated. 
Calculation demands equivalence. 
p 386



This in turn leads to that great embarrassing fact 
that haunts all attempts to represent the market as the highest form of human freedom: 
that historically, impersonal, commercial markets originate in theft.
p 386



What could possibly be more presumptuous, or more ridiculous, 
than to think it would be possible to negotiate with the grounds of one's existence?
p 387



For me, this is exactly what's so pernicious about the morality of debt: 
the way that financial imperatives constantly try to reduce us all, 
despite ourselves, 
to the equivalent of pillagers, 
eyeing the world simply for what can be turned into money—
and then tell us that it's only those who are willing to see the world as pillagers 
who deserve access to the resources required to pursue anything in life other than money. 
It introduces moral perversions on almost every level.
p 390



[end quotes]






15 July 2026

This idea we citizens of Empire have about 'FREEDOM' is, quite literally, the Freedom of Speech, lol, &no non-citizen will ever understand this freedom we exercise so ... 'freely'


i first encountered Jacob Mchangama in his "Who Has Free Speech" piece
in the Nov/Dec 2025 issue of Foreign Affairs
[he's got an online-only piece in the May/June 2026 issue]
&i thought that the piece was so good that i looked him up
&bought his book
Free Speech: A History from Socrates to Social Media




[begin quotes]



The Athenians had two distinct but overlapping concepts of free speech. 
Isēgoría [ἰσηγορία] referred to equality of public, civic speech,
while parrhēsía [παρρησία] can be translated as "frank" or "uninhibited" speech.
p13


"Where they burn books, they will also burn people in the end." 
—Henrich Heine
p285


Only 13 percent of the world's 7.4 billion people enjoyed free speech in 2016,
while 45 percent lived in countries where censorship was the norm.
p 321


In 1950, Eleanor Roosevelt had warned
that if hate speech prohibitions were embedded in human rights law,
"any criticism of public or religious authorities
might all too easily be described as incitement to hatred and consequently prohibited."
p 323


[re the pandemic] ... professor of history Serhii Plokhy compared China's response
to that of Soviet Russia to the Chernobyl nuclear disaster of 1986,
noting that "lack of freedom of speech helps to turn potential disasters into real ones
and national tragedies into international cataclysms."
p 334


In stark contrast to the logic behind sedition acts,
Mogoeng [Chief Justic Mogoeng Mogoeng of South Africa's Constitutional Court] noted that
"when citizens are very angry or frustrated," freedom of expression,
"serves as the virtual exhaust pipe through which even the most venomous of toxicities within
may be let out to help them calm down, heal, focus, and move on." 
pp 335-336


The current South African constitution exempts from the protection of free speech
"advocacy of hatred that is based on race, ethnicity, gender or religion,
and that constitutes incitement to cause harm."
p 336


In the twenty-first century, the United States remained [emphasis mine]
"the most speech protective of any nation on Earth."
p 337


"bad tendency" test,
judging speech by its potential harm, rather than any incitement to immediate harm.
...
This test was the first line of defence of Southern states against the dissent of abolitionists
and the civil rights movement.
The danger of adopting this logic is that,
if an incendiary op-ed could be said to threaten journalists' safety,
so [Drumpf] could use this reasoning to argue that
a provocative op-ed, banner, placard, tweet, or slogan constitutes "sedition and insurrection." 
p 339



So highly charged was the question of race
that the mere mentioning or discussion of certain words,
regardless of intent,
could lead to serious consequences.
...
While there was no shortage of loud voices,
many Americans chose to hold their tongues.
p 339 & 340


While Republicans focused their concerns on established media outlets and school curricula,
Democrats, liberals, and progressives,
on the other hand,
were significantly more supportive of banning hate speech
and preventing speakers with controversial views on race from speaking at universities.
p 340-341


All of these developments raised serious questions about the long-term resilience of free speech in the US. 
As Greg Lukianoff, the president of FIRE, warned,
"Free speech culture is more important than the First Amendment.
...
It's what informs the First Amendment today—
and it is what will decide if our current free speech protections will survive into the future." 
p342


"What are the limits of online free speech?
And who decides them?
[new para] In the most utopian and techno-optimistic days of the internet,
the answer to these questions were,
respectively,
none and yourself.
p 349


By 2020, global internet freedom declined for the tenth consecutive year.
...
As many as 73 percent of the world's internet users
were living in countries where political, social, or religious content was liable to result in arrests. 
p 354


John Stuart Mill feared society's tendency to impose conformity
"by other means than civil penalties,"
such as social and peer pressure,
as much as censorship by government.
Likewise, George Orwell warned that
"unpopular ideas can be silenced, and inconvenient facts kept dark, without the need for any official ban" 
when the public sphere is dominated by a centralized press owned by a few wealthy men. 
p 379-380


... "the right of speech is a very precious one, especially to the oppressed."
—Frederick Douglass
p 390


As Spinoza, Mill, and Orwell warned,
societal threats to free speech can be as stifling as government-imposed censorship.
Yet, determining whether private action undermines or is an exercise of the culture of free speech
can be difficult.
p 391




[end quotes]


29 June 2026

my dream is not to dress fancy people; my dream is to dress women who like to dress like men and men who want to dress like the women who like to dress like men


Reigning Men 
Sharon Sadako Takeda, et al [Oversize 391.1 Re]




these are my favorite four looks
[in no order of importance]
from this extremely biased book
lol
but whatchu gonna expect
from the masters of self-congratulatory masturbation
(the japanese &french japano/francophiles)
except that which is self-congratulatory masturbation
lol

&the 선 Sartorialism | Sketchbook page has been updated
w/more images of the reference-type variety




















[footnote]
&i learned
that the iconic
"aloha shirt"
was created by a japanese person
&this info is delivered with pride
*boooooo*
so
i will do my part
to hunt down
any/all
Hawaiian-owned
aloha-shirt companies
if there ain't none
then i guess we're gonna need to quit this shit shirt
*weeps*
in the meantime
i will NOT be buying/wearing/promoting
this style of shirt
*middle-finger up*
&generally speaking
just like
waaaaay too much japan-focus
lol
a whole chapter?
the only section defined by a country name?
biased much?
*vomits*















22 November 2025

The Reason for the Season is Sag Freedom




it's like everyone
the world over
decorates for the celebration of
Sagittariuses
lol



if you wanna pic of some body lovin'
is it weirder to take it of yourselves
or to pay to/have someone else take it?











[end note]
ootd ::
target dress [$15 in 2025]
im all about 100% cotton/linen/silk these days
(outerwear + exercise stuff excluded)
my entire wardrobe is nearly flipped over
same walmart sandals
&an "everyday" jewelry look ::
past-birthdays studs, hoops &necklace
ring [not-pictured, not-birthday]
pics :: 
the same ideology as always *iroll*
&no
context is not a "given"

12 May 2025

MAY 2025 | as a subscriber


this periodical really puts the snail in snail mail
*iroll*







i was really hoping that i would get this cover
but i honestly couldn't even hope
bc i soooo badly did NOT want a certain cover
nevertheless
this is the cover i wanted
cause looooook at that face!
fuck the met gala or whateva
ugh
*drool*
on another note
i have already decided that i will not be renewing this subscription
at the end of this subscription
i will probably start shopping single issues around the Embers


05 April 2025

2025 APRIL | the second of two subscriptions


&it looks like
Christine Sun Kim
is in this issue!
featured in the article
"HOLDING THE LINE"
by Mara Mills


01 April 2025

2025 APRIL | the first of two subscriptions


"who is this?" i wonder, aloud.
"g*** h****," the bodybuddy/lifemate answers.
"how the fuck do you know who this is?"
"it says it under the label."
"please."


19 March 2025

2025 MARCH | as a subscriber ...



i never received the january issue
[not sure if there was one, but the bodybuddy/lifemate subscribed me in early january]
the february issue arrived on 01Feb25
&this issue arrived yesterday, 18Mar25
curious.
also, i spoke outloud
to the bodybuddy/lifemate
about my disdain for the periodical
sticking the address label on the front
of the thing
&i posted a pic to the 'gram
last month
with no mention of my disdain
just the dreadful pic
as is
&this month
the address label is on the back!
i couldn't be happier
in this moment.

04 March 2025

12 February 2025

As a subscriber ... 2025 February & 'Winter'

Artforum February 2025



Vogue Winter 2025


02 January 2025

some shots of some studious shit












2024 New Books for our Reference Library


Dictionary of Law | Merriam-Webster 



Antigone by Sophocles, translated by Richard Emil Braun






MacKenzie Scott's 2024 Giving* to Eight Hawai'i-Based Organizations

(out of a total of 199 GLOBAL organizations! EIGHT organizations are in Hawai'i!
&this is, obviously, not a good thing, duh,
it should signal to any literate person that Hawai'i is in desperate need of some non-Elitist help,
as it's #facts that this place is swarming and infected
deep
with Elitism and Nepotism)

&yea, obviously, Scott is "concerning," in the best of ways, of course
&sure, the worst of ways if you're a capitalism-as-usual [read: greedy-ass mother-fucker]
capital-bee Billionaire *barf*

















*&yea, i obviously have my opinions about this sorta shit, but she's really treading into territory that i am already laser-focused on, so, i could feel really good about myself, or i could feel really bad about the state of hawai'i for Hawaiians *ugh*