in the nightest of light, the lightest of night, the night light, the light of night, the lightest night, the nightest light

i wish that you would not speak to me

as if i should show some gratitude

Thinking Thoughts through the Turning Time Tide

the Employed and Others

there will come a time when being employed, having a JOB is a status symbol.

there will be a class with zero upward-mobility, and this is very Un-American.

 

 

the East-Asian (minus japan, cause they are the supremacists of asia) Francophile

Ms. Tiffany Poon, how do you reconcile a desire to create "equality" or "to bring that which is Elitist to the Masses" while, obviously, loving being an Elite (you obviously wish you were french), which, ultimately, outs you as an Elitist not the Equalizer, the role for which you so charitably claim to play.

and, like, JENNIE, paris fucking needs you a lot more than you will ever need it.

 

the people who rescue animals versus the people who adopt humans

it's hard to compare these two types of people

but the reverence that is shown for the first type is odd

 

public female-nudity as body-positive female-empowerment

I just like really do not understand how my willingness and/or lack thereof to publicly broadcast my, literal, naked self is empowerment. Like, how fucking stupid do you have to be, really, to think that going out there and "baring it all" is empowerment. The joke is that you're naked, and you love it. You love giving the world exactly what it wants to make you feel relevant. You're literally taking your clothes off so that the world will look at you. "Yea, but it's MY choice! Nobody is making ME do this!" Yea, exactly.

 

"you just gotta get her hooked on cock, preferably, your cock" 

"well, ya, that'd be ideal"

"yea, so you fuck her and make her orgasm, like, all the time"

"..."

"if you make her orgasm, it's like giving her drugs, you know? cause like, it releases pleasure chemicals, and so, if you keep banging her, and she like cums all the time when you bang her, then she'll like, literally get hooked on your dick"

"no way"

"yea, it's how it's done, man, and the best part is, is that most women are like waay too stupid to like know that they're just hooked on the 'O' and not like on you specifically, so she'll like want your cock, specifically, and then, like, you know, she doesn't realize that she's giving it away for free, cause, like, she wants you, but like, you'd obviously like buy her a car or whatever if that's what it took to pound her pussy, you know, and so, like, after you've been like fucking her, her idea [lol], you sorta start to feel like you're using her, so you just like start getting her stuff you know she'll like"

"ya, bitches be so stupid like that"

 

the women who accept themselves and the women who accept the standard

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, the worst

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, full-blown misogynists

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, patriarchy patriots 

i really feel for these women, cause like, their lives must just be so horrifically terrible; they obviously need to spread the pain they feel all over anyone who comes near them or threatens their superiority, or the pain will crush them; it would crush anyone living like these types of women

 

  

the xtian public image

that runner, Sydney McLaughlin-Lavrone is not an xtian; she's performing xtianity as a means to "stay humble" and to "thank god" because he made her this way; all of her "success" is god's will *barf* she really thinks that she's so amazing that she needs to "thank god," cause if he made her this way, better than everyone else, then it's not on her, she doesn't actually need to have a humble psychology; it's a psychological "out" of doing the hard work of humility; not only is she discounting her own self in all of this, but also, no truly humble person, a stereotypical character trait of jesus subscribers, brings along their own crown with which to crown themselves at the event of the hegemony, i mean, olympiad; this faux-thankfulness to "god" for making you so great is just like, damn, listen to yourself, you fucking Elitist; you're gross; you're amazing, obviously, but gross *shivers*

 

posturing yourself as if you have more money than you do is fraud; you're a fake, and a liar

posing is for the weak and ineffectual

 

the blonde pop-star cycle

you're the IT girl

you have a decade-long run 

two-decades if you're lucky

you make a spectacle of yourself

nobody realizes that you never complain about the "burden of fame," cause you love it

all of it

the every-person thinks that everyone loves you

like they do

then the every-person learns that everyone boos you

and so

you PR stunt your new album

crickets

you PR stunt your engagement

crickets

you PR stunt The Halftime Show

crickets

you PR stunt a quickie-wedding

crickets

the boyfriend/fiance/friend does something crazy

crickets

someone, a stalker, does something crazy

crickets 

you do something fucking crazy

the woman who adopted you spread the opinion that you are lazy

and as you lay on your bed, tired, exhausted, on day two of your eight-shift vacation, you realize that you are internally beating yourself up and feeling lazy, and as you lay there, you remember how your own adopted mother, after hearing your physical therapist describe you as lazy, cause you were not recovering from the knee surgery to repair your torn patella tendon as fast as she thought you should be, while you were a senior in high school, in the running to be valedictorian, ballet dancer multiple nights a week at a ballet studio a thirty-minute drive from home and jazz dancer multiple nights a week at a jazz studio an hour away from home in the opposite direction of the ballet studio, while volunteering your time and attending night classes at a community college, cause you basically completed high school your junior year, which, by the way, was spent completing a year-long med-prep program for seniors, etc., spread the therapist's opinion that you were/are, in fact, lazy, and so, as you lay there, you realize that you have been working five days a week for two years and two months, non-stop, haven't missed a single shift, haven't called out sick, even did a multi-month stint of six-day weeks when your backup's father passed; you can take eight shifts away from your fucking job, and then you realize that your adopted mom is some fucking bitch, and that yea, you are not lazy, FUCK!

the "meltdown"

i'm chillin' on my second to last day of vacay, my first vacation, ever, cause i've never been at a job long enough to, like, "go on vacation," etc.; it's a long story, nevertheless, i have been mentally preparing myself for an emotional breakdown, cause like, i do not want to go back to my job, but i have to, you know? anyway, i'm feeling very blase, today, i'm menstruating, again, and i've never had a job where i go away for almost two weeks and return to the same job; it's a trip, and i do not want to spend my entire last day having a meltdown, but also, it feels inevitable, cause like, i know myself *ugh* regarding the PTO, itself, apparently, the only thing i really wanted to do was cook, lol, and yea, i did a lot of good mental work, so maybe i won't meltdown completely, and i honestly feel really grateful for the job that i have, cause, like i state in the opening, apparently, being employed, having a JOB is a privilege, not a right *sigh* 

 

the christian code-word for "Hate Speech"

evangelism

Think about it, this is what evangelicals do; they go around telling everyone that the way that you live is called "sin" and that if you do not believe in their god and do not accept jesus christ as your lord and savior from your "sin," you will go to HELL

how is this not hate speech?

it is

christian Evangelism is Hate Speech

but what they want is for you to hate yourself as much as they have been taught to hate themselves 

and/or to hate the way that people are

cause there is a "right" way to be 

it is a tool used to stoke fear and to create shame 

a power structure that entraps you in the frame that you are "bad" and thusly, need to be "saved" 

and oh look! we have your salvation! just hand over 20% of your income each sunday, and we've got you *wink wink*

don't be fooled

it is all just framing, not TRUTH

here's a different frame 

the pope is just another billionaire atop the world's first, oldest, largest, and greatest mid-level marketing scheme

what're you selling? SALVATION!

capitalism at its finest, monetization of the soul

and of course, the church thought of it first *wink wink* 

 

 

you think that the people who cherry-pick the bible won't cherry-pick EVERYTHING?

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

 

it seems like most people do not know how to search their own minds

REMEMBER, you gotta put stuff in there.

 

Maybe I'll run for Office

I am, obviously, very afraid of the very-real threat of death, but damn, AOC has really been doing her job lately 

Exercising In Sanity

*sigh* 

i really miss the days when zoella's following gravely outpacing her irl competence
was the most-annoying thing about influencers

*iroll*

we must REMEMBER that the "fight" is not about 

Us (one political party in a two-party system)

against Them (the other political party)

THE FIGHT IS ALWAYS ABOUT

US, WE THE MANY PEOPLE

AGAINST

THEM, THE ELITIST FEW IN POWER

Both sides are distracting us, We, The Many People, from this TRUTH

Both sides will grasp at any opportunity to obfuscate this TRUTH

Both sides' Ruling Elites want nothing more than to remain Elites, like duh

Don't take the bait

Refuse the distraction

Stay focused

Stay hydrated

Your Enemy is not your Right or Left Neighbor

Your Enemy is the Elites in Power who think of nothing but enriching themselves

In These United States of America, this Land of the Free, anyone of us, We, The Many People can rise; in fact, we're entitled to rise into The Few. Not everyone will make it, but nobody can stop you. Through the means of capitalism-as-usual, We, The Many People, have the right to become as rich as we please, as powerful as we please, and once we reach The Few, We have an obligation to REMEMBER that We are WE, The Many People.

Also in These United States of America, those of We who uphold and believe in the message, ideal, and hopeful future that our Constitution maps out for us, make a promise when we are either born into or succeed into The Few to REMEMBER The Many. 

It is the responsibility of The Few to REMEMBER The Many, to keep The Many in mind, for this is the promise of our democratic republic.

This is the promise of Our Constitution. 

This is America's Promise. 

And any member of The Few who only keeps The Few in mind is UN-AMERICAN.

Believe not a word.

None of this has anything to do with any ONE individual or ONE political party.

This is about US, WE, THE MANY PEOPLE, against THEM, THE FEW.

$B-cation B/V/Flogging

dear korean/americanadian (&generally, east-asian/americanadian) 'celebrity-famous' people,

I HATE YOU.

&you wouldn't MATTER without all of us, Korean-Adoptees.

this is probably a delicate situation, but i don't feel like "dealing" with it delicately, so i'ma just say it,

"korean/americanadians (yea, i'm lumping them in together, for this post) totally fucking suck, lol"

the reason why they suck (as a group, this is not an individual attack on any specific korean/americanadian) is mostly that they're weepy and oddly entitled.

right now, currently, in real time, there are korean/americanadians who are spewing shit about representation in, of all places, entertainment. 

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

there's like a thing that every white person knows about asians, maybe not korean/americanadians, specifically, but about asians, as representatives:

we're over-represented in intellectual fields

and this over-representation doesn't even include asians of the Brown variety

my point is that korean/americanadians see themselves as underrepresented in the categories of, like, "celebrity FAME," which is just like so gross *iroll*

the weepy stories are the other thing that fucking irks the shit outta me, like, it's so sad that someone made fun of the food of your immigrant family [inserted link 08Oct25 {BOOM! right. on. cue. *laugh-cry*}]

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

seriously? like you're from a family that was either rich enough, smart enough, or lucky enough to bring you and/or birth you to/on Empire (and yes, i am including canada in this, cause, let's be real, getting into canada makes traversing into the U.S. a stone's throw).  

so, like, shut the fuck up about your struggles.

the reason why you're even being "accepted by the whites" at this point and place in TIME is because of the hundreds of thousands of korean-adoptees who were shipped all over the white, white world. 

the korean/americanadians bicker and bitch about how they "didn't fit in" at school and such, but at least YOU FUCKING FIT IN IN YOUR OWN HOME!

like, fucking, duh.

the korean/americanadians are euphoric, these days, cause they're viewing their "FAME" as some barometer about acceptance and fitting in, as if they've done some hard work at being the "face of asian-ness" for white americans.

NO.

YOU ARE NOT THE FACES OF ASIAN-ACCEPTANCE IN WHITE AMERICA

KOREAN-ADOPTEES ARE THE FACE OF ASIAN-ACCEPTANCE IN THE WHITE WORLD

WE ARE THE ASIAN FACES THAT WERE THRUST UPON ALL-WHITE COMMUNITIES THE WHOLE WHITE WORLD OVER

WE ARE THE ONES WHO WERE THE ONLY ASIAN FACES IN THE WHITE COMMUNITIES ALL OVER THE WHITE WORLD

yea sure, some of you korean/americanadians were living in all-white communities, but you were segregated from the white people. you weren't the only asian person at a white happening. maybe you were, but you were there with your family, or you went back home to a family that looked just like you, where you fit in. 

korean-adoptees? yea, we were the ones who were dragged to all of these all-white events as the only not-white person. cause, even if we're with our families, we're still the only not-white people!

so go fuck yourself with your weak-ass suffering, your weak-ass suffering as a "representative" of asian-americanaidan-ness. go cry into the arms of the family that looks just like you, where you fit in as an asian-face against all of these white-faces.

we, korean-adoptees, are the reason why the white people of the world are so accepting of asian-faces, in general.

like, duh.

we, korean-adoptees, were brought into these white communities by fellow-whites.

we, korean-adoptees, were forced upon these white communities by fellow-whites.

we, korean-adoptees, were living inside of these white communities that are racist.

we, korean-adoptees, were sometimes abused inside of racist-white homes inside of racist-white communities.

we, korean-adoptees, sometimes suffered the most racist abuse inside our own racist-white homes.

we, korean-adoptees, had nowhere to fit in.

so, to, like, hear the weak-ass ways in which the korean/americanadians "suffered" and "suffer" from a lack of representation within the white entertainment industry, makes me quake with rage. 

and like, don't even get me started on the "adoption" movie that was made by a bunch of asian/americanadians who were NOT ADOPTED. like, what the fuck? are you fucking serious. that fucking movie was so fucking bad i never even mentioned it after i watched it. like, seriously? what. the. fuck. you have no business making movies about a topic about which you know absolutely nothing.

just like, just go fuck yourselves.

and like, YOU'RE WELCOME for laying down all of the ground work in all of these all-white communities, FOR DECADES, while you live your cushy little korean/americanadian life with your korean family. 

and like, THANK YOU, for reaping all of the rewards, while complaining and taking all the credit for your current "celebrity-FAME" success, lol. 

FUCK YOU, korean/americanadians. 

like, just listen to yourselves inside of the context of korean-adoptees in america, and the larger white-world, as a whole.

FUCK YOU.

Signed,

On behalf of all of the Korean-Adoptees

who are the Real Reason why korean/americanadian "famous" people
matter at all to white people

[a sorely-squandered] Scrumptious Sunless/Sunrise Stretch Scene

Scrumptious Sunless Stretch Scene

i've had a lot of Stretch Scenes over the past decade

Scrumptious Sunrise Stretch Scene

&this one is the best one by far
thus far
&after about a month in our newly setup condo
last night/this morning was the first night i thought to utilize this space for a stretch
*sigh*
the rug &mat used to be in our dark dark bedroom
&like
we had to drag both the rug &mat into this space
cause like
i'm so ephing old now that
for the past two years or so
i have no longer been willing to suffer through a bare-mat stretch
*ugh*
like
un-fucking-believable
like
what
the
fuck