w/a surplus of mothers i'd rather not-talk to &a shortage of grandmothers i'd like to talk to [&unable to even dream of a great-grandmother], the reality of the situation is that i'm trying to find my sister

the Adoption Agency finally responded
after a second, follow-up email was sent
that birth-grandmother has no phone on file
&the birth-grandfather's phone on file is not working
&that
"We feel sorry about that"

you respond by asking if you can be given any/all contact information that they have on file

but you remember

that you were adamant

that my birth father

not-contact me

&so

the repercussions of this

might be that birth-grandmother &birth-grandfather

or worse

your sister

thought that they were lumped into this

no-contact situation

the Adoption Agency responded much quicker
years ago

to a different email
that they did not have any contact information on file
for the biological half-sister about whom the inquiry was sent

&so

you've got nothing but a few pics

a name

a two-year age-range

your name

&a family registration number

김선 & 김선미
summer 2005