11 February 2022

In Good Company w/ Kate Middleton, Akwafina, and a coworker named ‘Something Really White'

 … one of these is not like the others … a series. 

re Kate Middleton

*coughs* uh yea, right, as if this common-born, anorexic Capricorn Colonizer “Likes” the idea that her hubby’s mistress could someday take her rightful place as “ queen” … LOL. 

re Akwafina

Yes, I understand cultural appropriation, which is why Nora shoulda never become famous in the first place, and yet, her fame (like all fame) is out of her hands, and so, why is she being canceled, while the people WHO HIRED HER go free? Someone else decided that a spotlight be shined upon Akwafina—that person was undoubtedly a white man. 

Of course, she rose to a place to be seen by mimicking by way of stealing the aesthetic qualities of people who are disenfranchised every single fucking day for being the way that she behaves for ... money, attention, fame (and laughs, one assumes). It’s an exploitative bastardization of creation, art, expression. And how is it fair that the decision-makers in charge (who made her famous and wealthy, btw) who made this terrible decision will remain, unscathed, in power to continue to make terrible decisions with regards to race and representation. 

In other words, Asians don’t have much by the way of opportunity when it comes to American entertainment, white or otherwise. In other other words, maybe Akwafina deserves a second chance if she can prove that she understands that she should have never accepted her fame on the pretense that her comedy (and thereby her representation) is propped up by those who are routinely disenfranchised by the behavior she’s paid to enact. If she can prove that she understands the problems surrounding her rise to fame—she changes, grows, has other talents than mimicry—then she ought to be given another chance to be better, do better.  

Or maybe she doesn’t, because maybe she simply deserves to be put out to pasture so that an opening can be made—in one of the eight?, five?, slots that have been "recommended" for Asian representation—for an Asian who already understands these things that she’s clearly been too lazy, ignorant or opportunistic to learn.

re “Something Really White”

“Tiffany, I heard that you’re Korean.” These were the first words out of the mouth of a young white coworker we’ll call Blank, directed at me, that landed in my ears. Before I could answer, I was immediately bombarded with her entire Asian history, “Where in Korea are you from?” And again, before I could answer, “My college roommate is Korean, so I’ve been to Korea. And my husband’s Chinese.” “Uh, yea, I’m Korean,” I managed through my teeth. (I’ll refrain from sharing the minutiae as I do not wish to linger on Blank too long.) A few weeks later I overheard Blank explaining to someone about how she speaks (a few words of) Mandarin because her “fiance” is Chinese. Then she tried to befriend me over our shared hobby—crochet, which I simply did not acknowledge because she’s a creepy stalker who knows shit about me without asking me (like the crochet) who then brings up these things because she knows I’m into them. She’s a gross, pathetic loser.  

Then she dyed her hair orange. All so petty, I know. It’s just so plainly obvious (if you’re Asian and know what I’m talking about) how badly she wishes she were Asian, but not because she loves Asian-ness, but rather, because to be Asian is becoming relevant. White is out. She eats sushi (which I hope she knows is Japanese, supposedly [if you wonder why I question this, look up what they did to Korea and Koreans, LOOK. IT. UP.]) regularly for lunch. 

The behavior that Blank—and others like her, like say, Kim Kardashian—enacts is what I am currently calling Race Relevance. They are revealing their racism by being keenly aware of which races “matter,” and therefore, they are determining how to procreate based off of what races their children ought to be in the future in order to remain “relevant.” Like, does Blank think that Koreans are half-Chinese, half-white people? Like a Chinese and a white have a baby and that baby is Korean?

I do not claim to have invented this term or even this idea. I simply haven’t come across whatever the official or coined term for this behavior is. And I am also apologetic if this is a term already ascribed to some other thing, and that the meaning of this/these thing(s) is vastly different. It sort of covers what I am attempting to describe, but I am, by no means, attached to the term, if I can even call it that. I assume that this is not a new idea and that it has already been thought of and developed by someone far more educated than myself on the matters of race, especially in America. 

My point is that there’s nothing I like about Blank, and there’s little to nothing to appreciate about Kim K. 

Bonus Member!

Yo, Billie Eilish (unworried about the sp., too lazy to look it up). Sure, “Trav” may or may not have understood the severity of the tragedy he willingly or ignorantly brought forth, but YOU, you—you ignorant cunt—are capitalizing on said tragedy. Feel good up there on your high horse pointing down on the already beaten, sucking social cred—that will inevitably turn into real dollars—that you are siphoning toward yourself in the wake of the death of multiple people in a serious tragedy? Do you even realize what you have now done, you dumbfuck? Go fuck yourself.


08 February 2022

On 'Jewface' (and why you don't really care)

You’re irritated. 

You look into the past, in on your “Christian” upbringing, the upbringing from which you have freed yourself and from which you still consider yourself recovering, the weird lady (who was not Jewish) obsessed with learning Hebrew and celebrating all things Jewish, as if she were a Jew. Teaching us the ways of the past, instilling within us an understanding of the way things were

You see Judaism, the Holocaust, the horrific tragedy of genocide, one of countless genocides in the history of humanity, and yet, the only one you can name by name. 

You see Jewishness, the Hasidic lifestyle of living in the past, the authentication of one’s lineage by being birthed of a Jewish woman who was verifiably birthed by a Jewish woman who was verifiably birthed by a Jewish woman, theoretically, forever into the biblical past (a totem on which not all believe) when the Jews were “God’s Chosen People,” and the rest of humanity is all, what?, Gentile? 

You are constantly bombarded with reminders of the royal lineage of “God’s Chosen People,” that necessarily elitist, hierarchical nature to this sort of—purified—need to be born of a Jew.

You wonder why there are no Black or Asian (of the Yellow or Brown variety) Jews. None that you know of by the definition of Jews themselves. 

You remember your Korean-adoptee acquaintances—adopted to Jews—and realize that because of their RACE, they will never actually be part of their own family. 

You understand that feeling of exclusivity when included.  

You look to the future. 

The obviousness of the Asian Persuasion has taken hold. 

You notice that Asianness covers both the Yellow and Brown variety, nearly equally.

You feel the haunting pull of the past reminding you of the Nature of the Jew. 

The whispers of cleansing

Still, in the future present, the Jew is a threat to the Asian (both of the Yellow and Brown variety), a reminder that we will never be “God’s Chosen People.”

You sit presently in the present.

You breathe. 

Of course, to be Black is to be everything. The Universe. The Multi-Verse. Multitudes. 

You see the desire for equity. The suppression and threat against free speech. 

You observe, like all would-be perpetrators who preemptively call out haters, while hating, and preemptively framing their innocence to a fault of which they are currently unaccused, the tongue lashing that accompanies the asterisk affixed to one's name when branded as an anti-Semite by Jews who can now openly suppress you, snuff out your rise through the ranks of (white) Jewish power (look it up), disguised as white when convenient, a Jew when needing to suppress someone, anyone, because they're an "anti-Semite" and therefore a threat to their (white) Jewish power structure, but not a peep from these same power-filled Jews about whether or not you’re an anti-Uyghur when you are silent on Uyghur genocide that is occurring in the present. 

You understand that only the powerful can pull off such a feat. Presently, you understand that a survivor of the Rwandan Genocide cannot professionally cut you off at your knees if you deny their suffering.

You understand that the Black Present will build the Black Future, which, theoretically, ought to be rife with equality, equity and democracy. 

And that in that future, you will then be positioned to shine.

But then you notice that you are Asian (of the Yellow variety).

You realize the Truth.

Look to the Past, Future or Presently

The dauntingly ugly, unfathomable Truth is that the Jew is the ethnic purifier, making the world the oyster of "God's Chosen People," under "God's" direct command and blessing.  

And the only way to stop an ethnic purifier is to stop giving two shits about the hierarchy of ethnic/racial supremacy, which outspoken white powerful Jewswho have enough time to call out anti-Semitic speechseem to care very little about, as a whole, in the present.

05 February 2022

To understand what it all means feels ...

3M's 9501+ KN95 mask is being given away for FREE
at/by/from our local public library. Find out how to get yours!

Our local public library is giving away this 3M 9501+ KN95 mask and the 3M 9502+ KN95 (the difference between the 01+ and 02+ being ear straps and head straps, respectively). About two weeks ago, they began to distribute them two at a time per person, per visit. I didn’t know anything about this; I just happened to be in the library when I overheard an older woman asking the masked librarian through a mask and a plexi-partition about the “free masks” and the ensuing conversation between her and the librarian that revolved around multiple phone calls, multiple visits to multiple libraries, etc. I was shocked, so I ran over and nonchalantly asked if there were anymore “free masks,” and the librarian happily obliged, and when I asked if I could get two for my [bodybuddy/lifemate], she asked, “Where is he?” To which I responded as I pointed to where he was standing near a display shelf, “Over there.” She happily gave up two more to me, and over the course of the past few weeks the distribution has been more generous, and so, we’ve been collecting them.

They’re good masks, so they say. 

We’ve been double masking with a fabric mask and a surgical mask over it. We acquired a large box of surgical masks sometime last summer.

Unfortunately, we are part-time employed (still, but oh so close to liftoff! Yes, our jobs totally suck, just like yours, but we are very close to no longer needing to job :) and receive paychecks from an employer, and so, two-to-three days per week we are in the face of the public and multiple coworkers. Luckily, it’s part-time. No complaints here. Also luckily, mask-wearing is enforced among the employed (and loosely enforced [no shooters, please] among customers), and luckier still, it’s a large, open (albeit indoors) environment, meaning it’s easy to remain a good distance from everyone, nevertheless, the virus ripped through the unvaccinated at our job late last fall, early winter. It was tragic, actually. 

Now we have a small backstock of good masks in case another unknown respiratory virus, etc. But it’s stupid not to use the “good masks” while the pandemic is ongoing, while we’re in it, right?, and yet, it feels like a waste somehow, perhaps, because we’ve gone this far without them. We’ve double masked for quite some time now, and our double-mask situation (yes, I can speak for the bodybuddy/lifemate in this instance) makes us both feel safe and well-protected, and yes, we are vaccinated, but we are not boosted, and we mask regularly and have actively avoided socializing this entire time, to this day, still, until … we don’t know when, because this thing is not over, and we've been healthy for the past two years straight, an extra-long stretch of health for me, personally. Crazy long, actually.   

How can it feel like a waste at this point in my life? I do not really understand the feeling. It’s so strange; it’s so illogical, but my natural pull is to save the “good masks” for the future, stash them away for an emergency, but we are living in it (an emergency) right now, as I write and breathe! Ugh! Am I crazy? Have I lost it? Am I dead? Did I die, and all of this is just some final figment of my life’s imagination? When will I wake from this never-ending liminal nightmare? We've never been stuck in one place for so long. Ever. Never. I can feel the pull of time, the spin of Earth. And sometimes, these days, I get dizzy. And the I in me really wants to know when this will all be fucking over, because to grapple with any sort of meaning during a time like this (or with regards to reality, at all) is futile, and so, the when of the matter is all I hope to understand, these days. 

01 February 2022

2022 JANUARY READS Books 01-08/80

Month Goal: 8/8 

Year Goal: 08/80

1. The Vanishing Half by BRIT BENNETT

Fiction Bennett, B. | 2020 | 343 pages*

2. Living in Data: A Citizen’s Guide to a Better Information Future by JER THORP

Nonfiction 001.4226 THO | 2021 | 320 pages


3. It Doesn’t Have To Be Awkward: Dealing with Relationships, Consent, and other Hard-to-Talk About Stuff by DR. DREW & PAULINA PINSKY

Nonfiction 306.7 PIN | 2021 | 384 pages


4. The Cult of We: WeWork, Adam Neumann, and the Great Startup Delusion by ELIOT BROWN & MAUREEN FARRELL

Nonfiction 333.33875 BRO | 2021 | 464 pages


5. UNFOLLOW ME: Essays on Complicity by JILL LOUISE BUSBY

Nonfiction 305.8 BUS | 2021 | 224 pages


6. Playing Dead: A journey through the world of death fraud by ELIZABETH GREENWOOD

Nonfiction 364.163 GRE | 2016 | 273 pages


7. Bad Fat Black Girl: Notes from a Trap Feminist by SESALI BOWEN

Nonfiction 305.420973 BOW | 2021 | 272 pages


8. How the One-Armed Sister Sweeps Her House by CHERIE JONES

Fiction, Jones, C. | 2021 | 288 pages 


*page numbers have been updated for informational consistency and thereby no longer match the video

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