the Lens
through which you view your Life
needs to be updated
upgraded
with age
at ten
your Lens
has a lot to learn
but your perspective
at ten
has a lot to lend
the way in which you view the world
is unfiltered
unburdened
by a Lens
as an aside
this is why any sort of indoctrination
of children
ought to be illegal
nevertheless
i digress
when you are twenty
you know a lot
but you only know so much
cause you're twenty
which isn't much
but it is enough
your Lens
is developing
and you see the world
in a particular way
through this Lens
you make it to thirty
and your Lens is set
and for the entirety of your thirties
that Lens suits you well
you're well on your way
to forty
but then something odd starts to happen to you
all of you
who begin to approach
forty
you resist the age
and refuse to upgrade your Lens
cause you "want to seem young"
or you accept the age
and upgrade your Lens
cause you want to be "useful to the young"
and so
maybe
what the fear of aging really is
is a fear of growing up
taking on the responsibilities of adulthood
of the Elders
cause none of this is about you
anymore
it never was
and maybe
it is not so much that you fear aging
as you fear not-aging
dying young
perhaps some even wish to die young
so as not to be judged
for a life not-lived
but mostly
what about those who refuse to age?
cause like
what does it say about you
if you value your diminishing youth
over your own-knowledge gains?
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| we made it y'all ^..^ &maybe the choice for "white" as a "color of the year" is a gift to "people of color" a term i detest btw cause maybe the gift is that if you are a "POC" *barf* then "white" as a backdrop to your "color-filled" life is kinda nice ya know a blank background &no i had no clue that this is what the bodybuddy/lifemate would choose for me &technically its "Awesome Lightgray" but ima call it WHITE cause i did consciously choose another object that i got for myself for my bday in WHITE lol &also just like also if you're the type who says that a company's choice of the color "white" is an act of racism YOU ARE ALSO A RACIST like duh [here's my official 2025 SELF-PORTRAIT | at Forty &the original is being stashed on my "in pictures" page] |
