aka tkcamas, angstydaisy, amateurtattletale, ladypolarity, &c. ... "esse quam videri" ... described colloquially as a time traveler's life-log while navigating this brief (encompassing that which does not exceed a singular lifetime) hiatus from the cosmic time tide of nonlinear time travel, upon this rock called Earth as it sails around a star named Sun, a name, oddly enough, that is my alien name in this foreign language, and so, "nullius in verba"
the girls of the girl-group speak accent-less english
the boys of the boy-group speak accented english
there are, obviously, a lot of messages wrapped up in this animated film, and depending on who you are, as the viewer, the messages will be different and hit differently
for me, this deliberate distinction between the boys and girls english-speaking being accented and accent-less, respectively, speaks volumes about the creator's point of view, and damn, mad-RESPECT
typically, i would leave my opinion open-ended here, but today, for this issue, i will outright state my interpretation of this subtle, yet absolutely significant decision: women work harder than men
yes, of course, there's the obviously vicious view where the boys sound like foreigners to native-english speaking ears, and the women sound "like us," etc., but the dig is subtler, too, as i'm suggesting; it's a blow to the idea that men are inherently "better" than women; it's a dig at the soul-crushing patriarchy of most asian countries; it's a dig at the obviousness, globally, that women are not only forced to be better than mediocre men to "win" their positions in this life, but also, that women do work harder to be better than all of the mediocre men around us, and we still get nothing, not even respect
my point is, watch out for this Maggie Kang; she's not only a genius, but also
she's a Power Player
[end note]
i'm also totally loving the white-ass-nerd djs who are eating up the soundtrack for their trance sets *_*
[our first vacation since we started these jobs in may 2023
&our first missed shifts since we got sick in july 2023]
also
all the kiddos i'm fortunate enough to know
are keeping me busy
with their awesomeness
*weeps*
there really hasn't seemed to be much to share
intellectually
like i said
cause every time i think
"oh, i'll give this societal issue on Empire some thought and post a post"
some other societal issue on Empire comes up
&so
what's the point of giving anything any deeper thought?
*weeps*
not to mention my recent acceptance about my own contributions to my own irrelevance
in the dawning shadow of gAI
not to mention the existential crisis of democracy as we know it
not to mention the existential crisis of humanity as we know it
not to mention the existential crisis of reality as we know it
not to mention the fact that i
literally
have not bought new jeans in
like
ten years
nor do i ever plan on buying new jeans ever again
*iroll*
for the better part of a year
i'd been waking up feeling dreadful
&then
recently
we switched up my birth control
(cause i was feeling abnormally low, struggle-level low, and i had a hunch that i was on a concoction known to cause this in me, etc.)
rearranged our condo
(set it up, really, for the first time, cause like, when we moved in, it was such a whirlwind of starting my new management-level job [one i never wanted or even ever asked for, btw], blacking out one set of the two sets of glass doors [we are night-jobbers], and acquiring furniture, all on a wage-laborer's budget, without a car [sold our car in 2013 and never looked back], and so, in short, our condo was a clusterfuck)
&i got a new person at my jobplace who i am to train to help out in my department
*sigh*
about two &ahalf weeks into these changes
&i find myself lamenting to the bb/lm that
"now i have no idea what is helping with my mood, cause like, everything changed all at once, ugh"
about a week before all of this
i had a teeth-falling-out dream
for the first time
ever.
i am obviously aware of these types of dreams
but i
myself
had yet to have one
also
we pretty much nailed down why i applied to law school
it was never about attending law school
&i had figured this bit out way back in january
but i was too far along in the process
so i applied anyway
&was rejected
lol
never
the
less
the applying part
for reasons now known to us
was the thing i was supposed to do
nothing more
with regards to "law school"
because
it was this move that i made
this other angle that i opened up for us
that allowed us to see what we needed to see
to now adjust/tweak/maneuver
&position ourselves
more accurately/astutely/advantageously
toward The Pursuit
in short
we've always known what we've wanted
from our life
&now
we know that we've taken steps in the right direction to get there
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