선 Sails

On 선 (Sun)

Mediocre Monday, no, wait, it's Thursday, so, Some Jokes At The Expense of 'White' People, lol

the "musicians" of your race have such terrible, mediocre-voices, that you don't even know what a good voice sounds like, and so, when you actually, finally get to hear a voice that is not-mediocre, you, obviously, think it's AI *laugh-cry*

&then, the white-voices that you worship openly admit that they use AI! and you love it!

the "musicians" of your race are so mediocre that when regular folk say, "man, these songs really all sound the same," the notorious response from "musicians" of your race is that, "but like, there are only twelve notes to use"

meanwhile, others, Globeauxes are writing original hit after hit, and the reason why these hits are hits is because they're new sounds that other, competent (read: not-white) artists are able to compose, lol

it's so blatantly obvious that the queen of mediocre-blondes ripped off the aesthetic of JENNIE's "ZEN"

it's like she thought to herself, "what sorta white-aesthetic can I use so that I can wear headgear?" which ultimately means that her music has zero meaning, because she was able to overlay any aesthetic on top of her album. meanwhile, JENNIE not only digs deeply into her korean-ness, but also, her music has meaning, and the aesthetic is thoughtfully conceived of within the context of her message

but like, white people are notoriously ignorant and illiterate; if you don't know this, you must be a white person, lol, cause like if you don't know this, as a white person, then you haven't traveled outside of these United Colonies of Elitism, enough; probably because you're too poor, cause you eat all your money, lol. like seriously, if you're a poor white person living on Empire, like, you're an idiot.

&it's such a relief to know, now, for a fact, that the "success" that any white person has ever "found" is/was all fabricated, inflated, fake news; the alternative being that white people really are stupider than the rest of us *laugh-cry*

&just for the sake of "going there," if i were a japanese person living here in hawai'i, like, WHAT. THE. FUCK? *barf* how do you show your name around these parts? and like, the ones who are here, in positions of power, no less, are proud. *ugh* you're disgusting.

&the irony is that japanese people think it's a compliment ;/

On The 'Impostors' Who Kill Themselves

you work so hard

you've worked so hard

you work. so. hard.

you climb

and you climb

and you climb

and one day

finally

you Arrive

and you look around

from the 99 to the ONE

you've Arrived!

but within the ONE

you're part of the 99

cause there's an exclusivity

even within the ONE

cause most of the ONE

is/was born into the ONE

(or fucked their way into it, lol)

and so

Here you are now

back in the 99

being looked down upon

being lesser-than

cause your type comes and goes

and you certainly have zero chance of being up Here

if you don't look like Them

and really

you don't really belong up Here

with Them

among Them

cause you clawed your way up Here

like some 99'er 

like a laborer

thus

"you don't belong up Here

cause you weren't born up Here

with Us"

They say

[end note]

them bitches always be jealous

Rosé

like

duh

*laugh-cry*

&JENNIE

dah-ling

"ZEN" is one of the greatest recordings in the history of recordings

&i listen to it every single fucking day

&yes

i have one teensy-tiny issue with one teensy-tiny lyric:

"... I'ma keep it Z

Zen

Presence

Bless

Money can't buy sixth sense ..." 

when you sing "Presence" it sounds like "Pre-sents"

like you're Presenting ... JENNIE!

which is totally great

but presence is typically pronounced more like "pr-eh-zence"

"preh-zence"

so its confusing

for me

cause obviously

i am nobody

so i have zero knowledge of your intention(s)

nevertheless

i am who i am

EPHWHYELL | Vol 0.1

Read about "The Why" (recommended ;)

Landing [uploaded 10Oct25]

see first drafts here

PHILOSOPHICAL FOCUS | NOODIVERSITY &FREEDOM

i encountered this concept, noodiversity, for the first time a few weeks ago while reading an article in the September ARTFORM. thus, this is a new philosophical concept for me, and i would like to understand it more fully. 

NOODIVERSITY, according to and coined by Yuk Hui, is what he calls, "our way of understanding our relation to the environment, which varies from one locality to another and is embedded in language, customs, and so on." [p122] The concept context is accompanied by two other concepts: technodiversity and biodiversity.

&FREEDOM, feels pretty self-explanatory as a focus for thought-work during these oh-so-current times *sigh*

• the Hawai'i State Library system is emphasizing our "FREEDOM to READ" [05-11oct]

FIND | Fitness 

i am returning to yoga, for the general well-being of my body. since we do not want to shell out cash, at this time, for a gym or studio membership where i can dance, i have decided to return to yoga in order to find some more fitness. i have been running moderately, and i will also continue to do that.

October Focus :: Urdhva Mukha Svanasana &Keep on Running

stretch every day, anything between small and large stretches counts

small = Surya Namaskar a minimum of five

large = warmed up all the way to Urdhva Dhanurasana

• saw this NPC doing yoga --> Chaturanga Dandasana + Utthita Vasisthasana flow <-- while playing Borderlands 4

November Focus ::

December Focus ::

FIND | Imagery

• through phodeo [photography/videography] explore
• "noodiversity"
• our first meme *laugh-cry*
• an NPC practicing some yoga (lol)
• "&freedom"

YUMMY | Cook once a week

• you have a bit more energy these days, so why not help out the bodybuddy/lifemate and conceive of and cook one meal each week in October (we'll assess the situation each month)

YUMMY | [sex]

• do with it what you will
• not gonna share the specifics *wink wink*

YUMMY | Money

• presented by tkscm, limited

LOVE | Reading

• find access to journal articles that are locked
• [article link]
• [article link]
• read unlocked journal articles
• [article link]
• [article link]
• [article link]
• find more to read on Hui's concept of "noodiversity"
• finish Nexus: A Brief History of Information Networks From the Stone Age to AI by Yuval Noah Harari

LOVE | Writing 

• write at least one nonfiction piece with the Philosophical Focus in mind
• write at least one fiction piece with the Philosophical Focus in mind
• write one card/letter to someone and send it to them 
• complete two writing dates
• writing practitioners speed + timed writing on Philosophical Focus
• find prompts here if/when you are ready to do your writing date 
• read the writings from my writing date here
• writing practitioners speed + timed writing
• find prompts here if/when you are ready to do your writing date
• read the writing from my writing date here

LOVE | Drawing

• if you haven't figured out that Book Three is a graphic novel, well, now you know, so it'd be nice to start getting some imagery going for the thing, etc.
• i actually do not enjoy drawing all that much; it is my least-favorite apparatus(? whatever), but i do enjoy the end-result after i spend time drawing, etc.
• 09Oct25
• 16Oct25

&FINALLY | Do I need anything to accomplish these exercises?

• sketchbook ✔
• touchscreen stylus (i had one, but we cannot find it!)
• mead, spiral, college-ruled notebook ✔ 

&THEN | you use the surge of excitement and get started, right away! if you feel the pangs, don't push it off or "save it" ... use the momentum! go, go, go! 

in the nightest of light, the lightest of night, the night light, the light of night, the lightest night, the nightest light

i wish that you would not speak to me

as if i should show some gratitude

Thinking Thoughts through the Turning Time Tide

the Employed and Others

there will come a time when being employed, having a JOB is a status symbol.

there will be a class with zero upward-mobility, and this is very Un-American.

 

 

the East-Asian (minus japan, cause they are the supremacists of asia) Francophile

Ms. Tiffany Poon, how do you reconcile a desire to create "equality" or "to bring that which is Elitist to the Masses" while, obviously, loving being an Elite (you obviously wish you were french), which, ultimately, outs you as an Elitist not the Equalizer, the role for which you so charitably claim to play.

and, like, JENNIE, paris fucking needs you a lot more than you will ever need it.

 

the people who rescue animals versus the people who adopt humans

it's hard to compare these two types of people

but the reverence that is shown for the first type is odd

 

public female-nudity as body-positive female-empowerment

I just like really do not understand how my willingness and/or lack thereof to publicly broadcast my, literal, naked self is empowerment. Like, how fucking stupid do you have to be, really, to think that going out there and "baring it all" is empowerment. The joke is that you're naked, and you love it. You love giving the world exactly what it wants to make you feel relevant. You're literally taking your clothes off so that the world will look at you. "Yea, but it's MY choice! Nobody is making ME do this!" Yea, exactly.

 

"you just gotta get her hooked on cock, preferably, your cock" 

"well, ya, that'd be ideal"

"yea, so you fuck her and make her orgasm, like, all the time"

"..."

"if you make her orgasm, it's like giving her drugs, you know? cause like, it releases pleasure chemicals, and so, if you keep banging her, and she like cums all the time when you bang her, then she'll like, literally get hooked on your dick"

"no way"

"yea, it's how it's done, man, and the best part is, is that most women are like waay too stupid to like know that they're just hooked on the 'O' and not like on you specifically, so she'll like want your cock, specifically, and then, like, you know, she doesn't realize that she's giving it away for free, cause, like, she wants you, but like, you'd obviously like buy her a car or whatever if that's what it took to pound her pussy, you know, and so, like, after you've been like fucking her, her idea [lol], you sorta start to feel like you're using her, so you just like start getting her stuff you know she'll like"

"ya, bitches be so stupid like that"

 

the women who accept themselves and the women who accept the standard

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, the worst

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, full-blown misogynists

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, patriarchy patriots 

i really feel for these women, cause like, their lives must just be so horrifically terrible; they obviously need to spread the pain they feel all over anyone who comes near them or threatens their superiority, or the pain will crush them; it would crush anyone living like these types of women

 

  

the xtian public image

that runner, Sydney McLaughlin-Lavrone is not an xtian; she's performing xtianity as a means to "stay humble" and to "thank god" because he made her this way; all of her "success" is god's will *barf* she really thinks that she's so amazing that she needs to "thank god," cause if he made her this way, better than everyone else, then it's not on her, she doesn't actually need to have a humble psychology; it's a psychological "out" of doing the hard work of humility; not only is she discounting her own self in all of this, but also, no truly humble person, a stereotypical character trait of jesus subscribers, brings along their own crown with which to crown themselves at the event of the hegemony, i mean, olympiad; this faux-thankfulness to "god" for making you so great is just like, damn, listen to yourself, you fucking Elitist; you're gross; you're amazing, obviously, but gross *shivers*

 

posturing yourself as if you have more money than you do is fraud; you're a fake, and a liar

posing is for the weak and ineffectual

 

the blonde pop-star cycle

you're the IT girl

you have a decade-long run 

two-decades if you're lucky

you make a spectacle of yourself

nobody realizes that you never complain about the "burden of fame," cause you love it

all of it

the every-person thinks that everyone loves you

like they do

then the every-person learns that everyone boos you

and so

you PR stunt your new album

crickets

you PR stunt your engagement

crickets

you PR stunt The Halftime Show

crickets

you PR stunt a quickie-wedding

crickets

the boyfriend/fiance/friend does something crazy

crickets

someone, a stalker, does something crazy

crickets 

you do something fucking crazy

the woman who adopted you spread the opinion that you are lazy

and as you lay on your bed, tired, exhausted, on day two of your eight-shift vacation, you realize that you are internally beating yourself up and feeling lazy, and as you lay there, you remember how your own adopted mother, after hearing your physical therapist describe you as lazy, cause you were not recovering from the knee surgery to repair your torn patella tendon as fast as she thought you should be, while you were a senior in high school, in the running to be valedictorian, ballet dancer multiple nights a week at a ballet studio a thirty-minute drive from home and jazz dancer multiple nights a week at a jazz studio an hour away from home in the opposite direction of the ballet studio, while volunteering your time and attending night classes at a community college, cause you basically completed high school your junior year, which, by the way, was spent completing a year-long med-prep program for seniors, etc., spread the therapist's opinion that you were/are, in fact, lazy, and so, as you lay there, you realize that you have been working five days a week for two years and two months, non-stop, haven't missed a single shift, haven't called out sick, even did a multi-month stint of six-day weeks when your backup's father passed; you can take eight shifts away from your fucking job, and then you realize that your adopted mom is some fucking bitch, and that yea, you are not lazy, FUCK!

the "meltdown"

i'm chillin' on my second to last day of vacay, my first vacation, ever, cause i've never been at a job long enough to, like, "go on vacation," etc.; it's a long story, nevertheless, i have been mentally preparing myself for an emotional breakdown, cause like, i do not want to go back to my job, but i have to, you know? anyway, i'm feeling very blase, today, i'm menstruating, again, and i've never had a job where i go away for almost two weeks and return to the same job; it's a trip, and i do not want to spend my entire last day having a meltdown, but also, it feels inevitable, cause like, i know myself *ugh* regarding the PTO, itself, apparently, the only thing i really wanted to do was cook, lol, and yea, i did a lot of good mental work, so maybe i won't meltdown completely, and i honestly feel really grateful for the job that i have, cause, like i state in the opening, apparently, being employed, having a JOB is a privilege, not a right *sigh* 

 

the christian code-word for "Hate Speech"

evangelism

Think about it, this is what evangelicals do; they go around telling everyone that the way that you live is called "sin" and that if you do not believe in their god and do not accept jesus christ as your lord and savior from your "sin," you will go to HELL

how is this not hate speech?

it is

christian Evangelism is Hate Speech

but what they want is for you to hate yourself as much as they have been taught to hate themselves 

and/or to hate the way that people are

cause there is a "right" way to be 

it is a tool used to stoke fear and to create shame 

a power structure that entraps you in the frame that you are "bad" and thusly, need to be "saved" 

and oh look! we have your salvation! just hand over 20% of your income each sunday, and we've got you *wink wink*

don't be fooled

it is all just framing, not TRUTH

here's a different frame 

the pope is just another billionaire atop the world's first, oldest, largest, and greatest mid-level marketing scheme

what're you selling? SALVATION!

capitalism at its finest, monetization of the soul

and of course, the church thought of it first *wink wink* 

 

 

you think that the people who cherry-pick the bible won't cherry-pick EVERYTHING?

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

 

it seems like most people do not know how to search their own minds

REMEMBER, you gotta put stuff in there.

 

Maybe I'll run for Office

I am, obviously, very afraid of the very-real threat of death, but damn, AOC has really been doing her job lately 

Exercising In Sanity

*sigh* 

i really miss the days when zoella's following gravely outpacing her irl competence
was the most-annoying thing about influencers

*iroll*

we must REMEMBER that the "fight" is not about 

Us (one political party in a two-party system)

against Them (the other political party)

THE FIGHT IS ALWAYS ABOUT

US, WE THE MANY PEOPLE

AGAINST

THEM, THE ELITIST FEW IN POWER

Both sides are distracting us, We, The Many People, from this TRUTH

Both sides will grasp at any opportunity to obfuscate this TRUTH

Both sides' Ruling Elites want nothing more than to remain Elites, like duh

Don't take the bait

Refuse the distraction

Stay focused

Stay hydrated

Your Enemy is not your Right or Left Neighbor

Your Enemy is the Elites in Power who think of nothing but enriching themselves

In These United States of America, this Land of the Free, anyone of us, We, The Many People can rise; in fact, we're entitled to rise into The Few. Not everyone will make it, but nobody can stop you. Through the means of capitalism-as-usual, We, The Many People, have the right to become as rich as we please, as powerful as we please, and once we reach The Few, We have an obligation to REMEMBER that We are WE, The Many People.

Also in These United States of America, those of We who uphold and believe in the message, ideal, and hopeful future that our Constitution maps out for us, make a promise when we are either born into or succeed into The Few to REMEMBER The Many. 

It is the responsibility of The Few to REMEMBER The Many, to keep The Many in mind, for this is the promise of our democratic republic.

This is the promise of Our Constitution. 

This is America's Promise. 

And any member of The Few who only keeps The Few in mind is UN-AMERICAN.

Believe not a word.

None of this has anything to do with any ONE individual or ONE political party.

This is about US, WE, THE MANY PEOPLE, against THEM, THE FEW.

$B-cation B/V/Flogging

dear korean/americanadian (&generally, east-asian/americanadian) 'celebrity-famous' people,

I HATE YOU.

&you wouldn't MATTER without all of us, Korean-Adoptees.

this is probably a delicate situation, but i don't feel like "dealing" with it delicately, so i'ma just say it,

"korean/americanadians (yea, i'm lumping them in together, for this post) totally fucking suck, lol"

the reason why they suck (as a group, this is not an individual attack on any specific korean/americanadian) is mostly that they're weepy and oddly entitled.

right now, currently, in real time, there are korean/americanadians who are spewing shit about representation in, of all places, entertainment. 

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

there's like a thing that every white person knows about asians, maybe not korean/americanadians, specifically, but about asians, as representatives:

we're over-represented in intellectual fields

and this over-representation doesn't even include asians of the Brown variety

my point is that korean/americanadians see themselves as underrepresented in the categories of, like, "celebrity FAME," which is just like so gross *iroll*

the weepy stories are the other thing that fucking irks the shit outta me, like, it's so sad that someone made fun of the food of your immigrant family [inserted link 08Oct25 {BOOM! right. on. cue. *laugh-cry*}]

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

seriously? like you're from a family that was either rich enough, smart enough, or lucky enough to bring you and/or birth you to/on Empire (and yes, i am including canada in this, cause, let's be real, getting into canada makes traversing into the U.S. a stone's throw).  

so, like, shut the fuck up about your struggles.

the reason why you're even being "accepted by the whites" at this point and place in TIME is because of the hundreds of thousands of korean-adoptees who were shipped all over the white, white world. 

the korean/americanadians bicker and bitch about how they "didn't fit in" at school and such, but at least YOU FUCKING FIT IN IN YOUR OWN HOME!

like, fucking, duh.

the korean/americanadians are euphoric, these days, cause they're viewing their "FAME" as some barometer about acceptance and fitting in, as if they've done some hard work at being the "face of asian-ness" for white americans.

NO.

YOU ARE NOT THE FACES OF ASIAN-ACCEPTANCE IN WHITE AMERICA

KOREAN-ADOPTEES ARE THE FACE OF ASIAN-ACCEPTANCE IN THE WHITE WORLD

WE ARE THE ASIAN FACES THAT WERE THRUST UPON ALL-WHITE COMMUNITIES THE WHOLE WHITE WORLD OVER

WE ARE THE ONES WHO WERE THE ONLY ASIAN FACES IN THE WHITE COMMUNITIES ALL OVER THE WHITE WORLD

yea sure, some of you korean/americanadians were living in all-white communities, but you were segregated from the white people. you weren't the only asian person at a white happening. maybe you were, but you were there with your family, or you went back home to a family that looked just like you, where you fit in. 

korean-adoptees? yea, we were the ones who were dragged to all of these all-white events as the only not-white person. cause, even if we're with our families, we're still the only not-white people!

so go fuck yourself with your weak-ass suffering, your weak-ass suffering as a "representative" of asian-americanaidan-ness. go cry into the arms of the family that looks just like you, where you fit in as an asian-face against all of these white-faces.

we, korean-adoptees, are the reason why the white people of the world are so accepting of asian-faces, in general.

like, duh.

we, korean-adoptees, were brought into these white communities by fellow-whites.

we, korean-adoptees, were forced upon these white communities by fellow-whites.

we, korean-adoptees, were living inside of these white communities that are racist.

we, korean-adoptees, were sometimes abused inside of racist-white homes inside of racist-white communities.

we, korean-adoptees, sometimes suffered the most racist abuse inside our own racist-white homes.

we, korean-adoptees, had nowhere to fit in.

so, to, like, hear the weak-ass ways in which the korean/americanadians "suffered" and "suffer" from a lack of representation within the white entertainment industry, makes me quake with rage. 

and like, don't even get me started on the "adoption" movie that was made by a bunch of asian/americanadians who were NOT ADOPTED. like, what the fuck? are you fucking serious. that fucking movie was so fucking bad i never even mentioned it after i watched it. like, seriously? what. the. fuck. you have no business making movies about a topic about which you know absolutely nothing.

just like, just go fuck yourselves.

and like, YOU'RE WELCOME for laying down all of the ground work in all of these all-white communities, FOR DECADES, while you live your cushy little korean/americanadian life with your korean family. 

and like, THANK YOU, for reaping all of the rewards, while complaining and taking all the credit for your current "celebrity-FAME" success, lol. 

FUCK YOU, korean/americanadians. 

like, just listen to yourselves inside of the context of korean-adoptees in america, and the larger white-world, as a whole.

FUCK YOU.

Signed,

On behalf of all of the Korean-Adoptees

who are the Real Reason why korean/americanadian "famous" people
matter at all to white people

[a sorely-squandered] Scrumptious Sunless/Sunrise Stretch Scene

Scrumptious Sunless Stretch Scene

i've had a lot of Stretch Scenes over the past decade

Scrumptious Sunrise Stretch Scene

&this one is the best one by far
thus far
&after about a month in our newly setup condo
last night/this morning was the first night i thought to utilize this space for a stretch
*sigh*
the rug &mat used to be in our dark dark bedroom
&like
we had to drag both the rug &mat into this space
cause like
i'm so ephing old now that
for the past two years or so
i have no longer been willing to suffer through a bare-mat stretch
*ugh*
like
un-fucking-believable
like
what
the
fuck

re 케데헌

the girls of the girl-group speak accent-less english

the boys of the boy-group speak accented english

there are, obviously, a lot of messages wrapped up in this animated film, and depending on who you are, as the viewer, the messages will be different and hit differently

for me, this deliberate distinction between the boys and girls english-speaking being accented and accent-less, respectively, speaks volumes about the creator's point of view, and damn, mad-RESPECT

typically, i would leave my opinion open-ended here, but today, for this issue, i will outright state my interpretation of this subtle, yet absolutely significant decision: women work harder than men

yes, of course, there's the obviously vicious view where the boys sound like foreigners to native-english speaking ears, and the women sound "like us," etc., but the dig is subtler, too, as i'm suggesting; it's a blow to the idea that men are inherently "better" than women; it's a dig at the soul-crushing patriarchy of most asian countries; it's a dig at the obviousness, globally, that women are not only forced to be better than mediocre men to "win" their positions in this life, but also, that women do work harder to be better than all of the mediocre men around us, and we still get nothing, not even respect

my point is, watch out for this Maggie Kang; she's not only a genius, but also

she's a Power Player

[end note] 

i'm also totally loving the white-ass-nerd djs who are eating up the soundtrack for their trance sets *_*

An Introduction in ASL :)

&omg, the bodybuddy/lifemate already caught an error i made

*weeps*

when i say that i've only been speaking sign language for 1 year

i sign "speaking" incorrectly

ugh

is this why nobody learns new things?

cause like

you really just look/sound like a fucking idiot

when you're just starting out

*sighs*

on utoob

post-ad-day Po-ke Par-tay

poke person at our local Foodland :: "Are you going to work or are you pau work?"

me :: "We're done! Pau!" *big smile*

poke person :: "Oh, you work overnight?!"

me :: "Yea, on [redacted location]"

the bodybuddy/lifemate :: "We work at Safeway"

poke person :: "That Safeway has poke"

the bodybuddy/lifemate&i :: *look guilty*

poke person :: "But We have the best poke" *cackles*

the bodybuddy/lifemate&i :: *laugh* "Shhhh!"

just practicing for my passport photo

you're welcome

Sailor's Log | read it &weep!

there's

like

too much to write about

it's just

like

waaaay too fucking much

&so

i'm sorta opting for not-writing

cause i

quite honestly

cannot pick a topic

because

like

unless you've been living under a rock

then you know

that there's no time

no room

no space

to really do any sorta

deep

mental thought-work about anything that's going on 

"in the world"

&c.

but

it's been a long time

really

since i've written

anything

but captions

&c.

&so

i'm writing

right now

this here thing

the other thing is that i've been training a new person

at my jobplace

how to do my job

even though

i am not leaving my position

a "third person"

has been needed for some time

cause like

i gotta

eventually

take a vacation

&so

the bodybuddy/lifemate&i decided that we will

indeed

go on "vacation"

&so

we've been both

preparing our condo

through an enormous rearrange

that we accomplished two weekends ago

&preparing my jobplace

through the training of a new "third person"

who will

in the end

do a sorta two-department job

which will make her available to cover my job

along with my "second person"

when i am not available

or in a short-notice coverage sorta way

&c.

&so

it's tiresome to train new jobbers

*sigh*

thus

we

the bodybuddy/lifemate&i

are heading toward a mid-september vacation!

[our first vacation since we started these jobs in may 2023

&our first missed shifts since we got sick in july 2023]

also

all the kiddos i'm fortunate enough to know

are keeping me busy

with their awesomeness

*weeps*

there really hasn't seemed to be much to share

intellectually

like i said

cause every time i think

"oh, i'll give this societal issue on Empire some thought and post a post"

some other societal issue on Empire comes up

&so

what's the point of giving anything any deeper thought?

*weeps*

not to mention my recent acceptance about my own contributions to my own irrelevance

in the dawning shadow of gAI

not to mention the existential crisis of democracy as we know it

not to mention the existential crisis of humanity as we know it

not to mention the existential crisis of reality as we know it

not to mention the fact that i

literally

have not bought new jeans in

like

ten years

nor do i ever plan on buying new jeans ever again

*iroll* 

for the better part of a year

i'd been waking up feeling dreadful

&then

recently

we switched up my birth control

(cause i was feeling abnormally low, struggle-level low, and i had a hunch that i was on a concoction known to cause this in me, etc.)

rearranged our condo

(set it up, really, for the first time, cause like, when we moved in, it was such a whirlwind of starting my new management-level job [one i never wanted or even ever asked for, btw], blacking out one set of the two sets of glass doors [we are night-jobbers], and acquiring furniture, all on a wage-laborer's budget, without a car [sold our car in 2013 and never looked back], and so, in short, our condo was a clusterfuck)

&i got a new person at my jobplace who i am to train to help out in my department

*sigh*

about two &ahalf weeks into these changes

&i find myself lamenting to the bb/lm that

"now i have no idea what is helping with my mood, cause like, everything changed all at once, ugh"

about a week before all of this

i had a teeth-falling-out dream

for the first time

ever.

i am obviously aware of these types of dreams

but i

myself

had yet to have one

also

we pretty much nailed down why i applied to law school

it was never about attending law school

&i had figured this bit out way back in january

but i was too far along in the process

so i applied anyway

&was rejected

lol

never

the

less

the applying part

for reasons now known to us

was the thing i was supposed to do

nothing more

with regards to "law school"

because

it was this move that i made

this other angle that i opened up for us

that allowed us to see what we needed to see

to now adjust/tweak/maneuver 

&position ourselves

more accurately/astutely/advantageously

toward The Pursuit

in short

we've always known what we've wanted

from our life

&now

we know that we've taken steps in the right direction to get there

&better still

we're going to make it

*weeps*

you are perfect, SJ; PERFECT.

photo by SJ's 엄마 2025
(my edit ;)
full carousel on insta 
(&yes, this is the Girl Child with Locks of Gifts ;)

We in 2018

It must be wild to be a 'straight-white guy' who cannot be saved by a bunch of 'straight-white guys,' lol.

Obviously, Colbert's been known as "irrelevant" around our condo, since about 2018.

I honestly didn't even know that people still "cared" about what he has to say, but I guess, they don't, lol.

The only people who seem to care about Colbert are those who are at risk of experiencing his same fate, lol. 

Cause I haven't cared, like I said, since about 2018.

Good riddance!

Bubye, "Straight-White Guy"! 

"Oh, but she doesn't get the larger implications of all of this on free speech

and whatever else all of this means!"

they say.

To which you reply,

"There are other, better voices, that will rise from Colbert's ashes."

"No there won't! Can't you see what all of this means!

This attack on dissent? This dictatorial bribery of the Free Press?!"

they say.

To which you reply,

"Add it to the kindling for the Mob-like conflagration.

If these 'straight-white-guy Libtard-Comics' were unable to keep Ma-Ga out of the White House

with their 'pointed political commentary'

then this is sort of an evaluation of their own competence

in that

they are incompetent political commentators

and worse

they blame their own bosses of cowardice

when really

they're the cowards

so boldly 'taking off the gloves'

now?

when there's, literally, nothing left to lose?

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Pussy-Ass Cunt-Coward Colbert!

we shouldn't even be listening to these types of political 'comics'

these Elitist Elites disguising themselves as 'comedians'

those poor-old schmucks just like us regular people

lol

their 'take' has always been fully-self serving

like duh"

the rest of the world always gets to learn a lot from Empires as They fall.

Man in Summer

"Man In Spring"

yes, sbux

[always sbux, for it is where we met, after all, as cojobbers financially supporting ourselves while in school]

saturday sunrise stroll

poke parking

[not for us, we are carless pedestrians]

 

"Man in Winter"

thirsty thursday

whenever we finally make it back to 서울시
i will eat 냉면
specifically 피냉면 from "Maandoo Shack" (its official korean name is, quite literally, unknown to us, lol)
&the 물냉면 w/radish stems from Noodles Tree
i will eat 냉면
until i can no longer eat 냉면 anymore
&i will finally be happy
until then
this'll have to do
*sigh*

선BREW

&as the bodybuddy/lifemate so aptly commented
"it's like we're in some concrete tunnel; you can't even see that we're outside"
YES
because it is not my goal to highlight the superficial so-called "beauty" of this place
Honolulu, HI, USA
because it is UGLY
ugly as fuck
rotting, really
from the inside out
the Islands are being suffocated by
white/japanese Elitism and Nepotism
(&if you don't specifically understand the travesty that is japanese-ness
especially
these days
in the context of south korea being what it is
and how japan
never "paid for" its crimes committed during WWII
crimes committed against
koreans
you need to read a book about it
&let japanese-ness DIE!)
up and down every single power structure
here
in Honolulu, HI
and it is creating a level of incompetence that i've never personally witnessed ever before
in my very-global lifetime
this is an UGLY place
i've been all over the world
this is an UGLY place
not because the people are ugly
but because the People in Power are ugly
and so
stop coming here as a tourist
there's nothing beautiful to be seen
here
the only reason why anyone should come here
is to be an ally for the Islanders so that these Islands can be returned to them
do not bother coming here
at all
because to travel here
to enjoy its superficial beauty
while knowing that the Native-Islanders
are openly suffering
are being intentionally oppressed
means that you're okay with white/japanese supremacy
which means that you are an enemy of the Islands
because you're continuing to contribute to the wealth-building of the white/japanese Elitists
and that's helping nobody but THEM
while harming EVERYONE ELSE!
most of all ... the people who found these Islands
*vomits*

Aloha, my ass!
the white/japanese Elitists have bastardized this beautiful Islander Idea
The Idea of Holding Consideration for Others
the white/japanese Elitists have weaponized "Aloha" for their own supremacy
do you see how this Idea can be easily corrupted?
as the one with the gun
do you see how easy it is to convince someone to consider you, the gun holder
over their own self?
and so
my suggestion would be to not use the word
because it does not mean what it means
anymore
the white/japanese power structures here
have made sure of it
they have made the word into a tool to, essentially, control
the majority not-white/not-japanese/not-Islander jobforce
here on the Islands
and sort of like an infection
the racial-majority
here on the Islands
have almost made it "okay" to exploit and oppress them
because they're just happy to be here
On Empire
and so
they are certainly not going to stick their necks out
for the Islanders
and the white/japanese Elitists know this about the racial-majority
here on the Islands
and there are not enough Islanders
(less than 10% of the population)
to fight the fight
against our Overlords
and so
ALOHA
within this context
is gross
because it's exploiting a Native-Islander mindset
and using it against the not-white/not-japanese/not-Islander racial-majority
here on the Islands
as a tool
to remain in power
*vomits*

am i missing something?

saw a thing was trending
was at the job when i saw it
tried it as soon as i got home
lol
#today

The Sexist &The Misogynist ... On The JOB

Even though the exact difference between The Sexist and The Misogynist is subtle, being able to identify the difference between them is crucial. 

&please fucking REMEMBER that this is a blogspace

not an academic research paper

*iroll*

my role here

as The Pen

is not to know everything

but to be able to put things into a context that can then be known

&thusly understood

also please REMEMBER

that i am currently living in Honolulu, Hawai'i

&this is all happening

as sad as it is

in this ass-backward city

as we live &breathe

• The Sexist
• Sexism is all wrapped up in the way that we interact with people depending on their sex (physical reproductive organs) AND gender (society's demand that the society-determined outward expression of one's physical reproductive organs and one's physical reproductive organs match)
• The Sexist sees your genitals, first and foremost, and then behaves according to the stereotypes in their mind about people who share your specific genitalia, and they expect you to behave according to these stereotypes
• Men and Women are equally Sexist; LGBTQ+ (again, be reminded of the hierarchy of the letters here, you will be lambasted as anti-whatever, if you do not know the "proper" order, etc.) being the most-sexist of us all as they demand to be identified by their sex, at all times, by all people; they demand that we all know with whom they want to have sex, whether or not you want to have sex with them
• The problem, however, arises from Men (of all sexual preferences) who are Sexist, because we are living in a Rule-by-Men type of World right now, Patriarchy
• Women Sexists are problematic, too, in that they are continuing to subscribe to the tiny boxes that define us, and so, by not-helping, they are, in fact, harming themselves and everyone else
• When someone outs themselves as a Sexist, for the first time, this is not a fire-able offense, in my opinion. This person, if unaware of their Sexism, needs to be reprimanded, obviously, and made aware of the fact that they are Sexist and thusly, must undergo more training, etc. If they change, great. If not, then it's time to go.
• The Misogynist
• Misogyny is built on top of Sexism
• ALL Misogynists are Sexist, but not all Sexists are Misogynists
• Misogynists take Sexism further by valuing Manhood (or even gayness) over Womanhood
• The Misogynist sees your genitals, first and foremost, and if you possess genitals that signal "woman," you will be treated as "lesser" by people who practice Misogyny (and remember, misogynists even include those who identify as "gay")
• Men and Women are equally misogynistic, only in that Boomers (over sixty) and Millennials (under forty-five) are nearing a 50/50-type of generational "control"
• I would argue that younger Men and Women tend not to be misogynists at the same rate as older Men and Women, and I would argue that more younger Men are misogynists than younger Women, but that older Men and Women are equally misogynistic. 
• I would also argue that Gen Xers are equally split, depending on general wokeness/intelligence, and so, their respective halves contribute equally to older and younger Men and Women
• When someone outs themselves as a Misogynist, strides must be taken to extricate this person from the jobplace, as swiftly as possible. 

^..^

There are about a dozen overnight jobbers at your jobplace; you are one of three females, and the only woman non-union overnight-manager (there's this one other non-union woman-manager who pops in from time to time, but she is hardly considered an "overnight manager," and recently, a new non-union young-woman overnight-manager arrived [non-union managers job for The Company; Union-Jobbers staff the store]). The overnight crew is split nearly down the middle with Boomers and Millennials. Of the Gen X, they would split equally along the lines of the Boomer/Millennial mentality, and so, the overnight jobforce is split 50/50 on Boomer v. Millennial Mentality.  

"Hey, Number 1 (non-white boomer man)," you stop The Boss one day. He stops and turns. "I think I need another tagger," you explain. "How about Blank (gen-x white-passing man)," he offers. "That's what I was thinking," you smile, from under your mask. "I'll talk to him before he leaves," he states.

The two of you part ways, and the next shift or two are spent training Blank on how to hang tags. Blank takes on the task of tagging slower than the others, and you're not sure why. He looks perfectly capable; he's a white-passing dude who peaked in high school, identifies as japanese, which is just like so gross, because you know, for a fact, that he'd identify as white on the Mainland and therefore, is "better" than all of us, just ask him, wait no, you don't even have to ask, he's a mouth-runner (side note: he's married to a korean-adoptee, and so, their two kids are half-korean, and a quarter-white/japanese, and they have japanese names, and they live with his japanese mother! *barf*). Anyway, he takes to tagging slower than the others, and so, you need to give him a little extra push AND you have to train him how to "look ahead," cause he, obviously, hasn't figured it out himself, like the others, and when you explain to him the "look ahead" technique, he scoffs and says, "Psht, that sounds like a woman's skill." And he didn't speak these words in front of just you, he said it in front of you and your two main taggers who are both not-white women, just like you. 

You, obviously, reported this to your (millennial white-man) MOD, at the time (he has since been moved stores). Obviously, no man cares about things like this, and so, you're fairly certain that nothing will be done about it. Months go by, and everything is basically alright. Blank continues to be the slow tagger, and that's fine, cause your other taggers are only getting better, and Blank's ego seems to be able to do the necessary gymnastics to convince himself that he's just as good as everyone, nay, we couldn't do it without him ... until, that is, you get your next new tagger (non-white millennial man), who happens to be a member of the Deaf Community. You brought him up to The Bosses, as a potential new-tagger; since he doesn't check at the registers, he can't ever be "pulled away" from tagging.

Your new tagger begins matching Blank's tagging speed within about two months; Blank's been tagging for over a year at this point, and then, your new tagger starts to hit a sort of exponential speed increase, just as you suspected he would (nowadays, he's so fast, in fact, that he came up to you, because he wants to hang all the tags by himself, lol, so you put him on a training regime so that he'll be able to do it one of these days), and it's becoming apparent to you that to speak to Blank about his tagging speed will not be pleasant. Blank began tilting, you noticed, by trying to take your main-main tagger "down a peg" when he showed you the tiny stack of tags she had leftover one night and asked with a scoff, "Like, what happened, she couldn't finish her tags tonight?" To which you responded, "You are incapable of hanging the amount of tags she hangs, in the time that she hangs them," as you walked away. 

Then one week, about a month ago, you must talk to him about his tagging speed, because he and one of your main woman taggers (not your main-main tagger, obviously, she is perfect; the other one) simply did not cut it one week. And so, just like you always do, you approach each of your taggers the next day to find out how the night went, and to find out if there were any wonky tags, etc., etc., etc., and this particular week, you had to do the hard job of confronting Blank's tagging speed. 

After you exchange banal bromides, "Yea, so last week was too slow," you start, "You and [the other woman tagger] needed to get X, Y, and Z done. I told you both, and I left explicit instructions." He puts on a face as if he's never been criticized once before in his whole life, can't even look you in the eyes, and says, "So you're managing my time, now?" You're blown away. You almost don't know what to say so you say, "Yea, I am managing your time if you are incapable of finishing your work during your shift, because that's my job to make sure that the job gets done," you answer. And then a customer walked into line, and he had to go be the checker. You obviously go and tell the MOD, one of two-new non-union, overnight-managers (the young-man one), and you can tell by the look on his face that he does not care, "I'll talk to him." To which you respond, "Fine, but I'm also telling Number 2 (non-white boomer man)," and at the end of your day, you tell Number 2.

Two weeks later, Blank is walking around the store, like he always does, about which you've complained, repeatedly, to all of the MODs you directly interact with, regularly, and because Blank is trying to manage the time of one of the other clerks, who outranks Blank by like seven years, you cannot take it anymore and ask, "Why are you managing his time? It's not your job to manage anyone. You do not need to manage anyone's time, especially not his, because he outranks you by like five years." 

To which Blank responds, "I don't give a shit. I like it better when you don't talk to me." 

Blank is a fifty-plus year old white-passing man.

This is a fifty-plus year old MAN saying these things out loud, to a supervisor, at his JOB.

This is a textbook White Gen X Man, in your opinion.

This is basically the only type of White-Man Gen Xer you've ever encountered.

They, along with White-Man Millennial/Gen X-cuspers are whiny little bitches, generally speaking.

You immediately tell the MOD, and you tell him in front of the clerk who outranks Blank, the young not-white man clerk about whom Blank does "not give a shit," so that the young clerk can hear what Blank actually thinks of him, because from Day One, Blank came in as if he was god's gift to us all. Blank took it upon himself to make us lowly little people feel better about all of this with his loud mouth, fake attitude, and obvious superiority complex (he is white/japanese, afterall, a death-mix for supremacy, if anyone were to ask you). Blank was obviously on full-tilt from the start. It's obvious to you, now, that Blank was spewing all his shit to comfort himself. Blank had, obviously, "fallen" from some higher height, in his mind, and all of this was beneath him (in fact, he was fired from his job on a shipping ship, because he's an anti-vaxxer, lol, and you learned this from the horse's mouth). This was obvious. And all of our fellow overnight jobbers are not stupid people. But mostly, the others don't want to make a fuss. Sticking your neck out is how you get killed, both literally and figuratively, around here. 

After reporting what Blank said to the MOD, you immediately pull the lever of the HR Hotline, and detail everything that happened that day. Once you receive your official report number, you start entering in all of the past-issues that were, obviously, never reported or taken care of. It's obvious to you now that none of the MEN managers EVER reported fucking Blank, officially, on PAPER! 

You are asked to state what would "resolve" this issue, and you state that the only resolution you will accept is Blank's removal from the overnight crew. 

Later in the day, Number 2 arrives, and we "talk" to Blank about what happened. Blank, obviously, denies the whole thing, and then Number 2 goes on to not only tell the two of you about how he (Number 2, himself) nearly got fired but also, about how all he knows is that Blank gives really great customer service. And you almost cannot believe where you are, right now, in this moment, and you literally look around the office, and wonder if you've traveled to the 1950s? 

And you have to interrupt Number 2, "What does any of this have to do with anything?" And it's obvious to you now, that the fucking Number 2 person in this store literally does not know how to do his job! You're furious. Number 2 excuses Blank, and you rip into Number 2, "What the hell? We dragged Blank in here, cause he cussed me out, and you're sitting here telling him how great he is?!?! I fucking hate that guy. He's sitting here like a sad little puppy, but he is a fucking Misogynist, Number 2! Fuck this! I will not job here with Blank! If he shows up on Monday, I am walking out!" And you storm out of the office. Number 2 is an obvious Sexist; you know this about him; he talks to women about being pregnant. Number 2 cannot imagine Blank being "bad" at his job, but he sure can imagine you being "hysterical." You add all of the Sexist behavior Number 2 has shown to your HR report. You unload.

About ten minutes later, Number 2 peeps into your office, and asks if you'll come back to his office to talk to Number 1 over the phone. Number 1 talks you off the ledge. At the end of the conversation, however, he says, in so many words, "You know, this is going to be a 'he-said, she-said' thing," and you believed him, in the moment, because you were blinded by pure fucking rage. 

Two whole weeks go by, and every day or so, you add to your report all of the things that have, obvious to you now, not been reported.

One whole week later, you finally hear back from HR, cause she was on vacation, lol, and so, for three whole weeks, this fucktard, Blank, went unpunished for his behavior. How do you think he started behaving, now? Well, in general, it seemed like the rest of the overnight crew was filled in on what Blank said, and by the sheer force of social ostracism, Blank began trying to find friends outside of the department. It's sad, and you almost feel bad for the guy, and then you REMEMBER.

A few days later, over the phone, you recount to HR the meeting (answering forty-five minutes of other questions she had), and what Number 1 said with regards to this being a "he-said, she-said," and the HR person was, surprisingly, on your side about this. You're a non-union manager reporting not only insubordination but also, blatant sexism, misogyny and hostility. Later, later, we are finally in an in-person meeting with HR and Number 1. They say, in so many words, that Blank can't be removed, cause there's not a long enough paper trail. They even suggest that "You guys just shouldn't talk to each other." You, literally, have to explain to your own Company's HR person that her solution for us to "not talk to each other" is literally the definition of a toxic and hostile job environment. You look at her like she's stupid.

You're furious. 

You explain to them the problem, again and again and again. 

You're saying that the lack of paper trail IS the problem, duh, and they're saying, the lack of paper trail is why they can't do anything about it, cause Blank is a Union clerk. 

And then you explain how Blank can cuss you out, a non-union manager, and he has the protection of the Union, and you have nobody, because all of the MEN managers refused to do anything about Blank, for over a year! They keep telling you that Blank can't be removed, and you keep responding that you will just stop showing up, and Number 1 asks, "What do you mean?" To which HR answers, "She'll resign." To which you clarify, "No. I will not resign. I will not give notice. I will not train a new person. I will simply be gone one day. I will simply not show up one day, with no notice."

The three of you go around in the same circle three times until finally you say, "Why can't he just be transferred to a different store? Or I'll leave. It's no problem. I'll happily do some other job. I never even wanted this job, remember, Number 1? This job is hard enough, I certainly do not need any of this, too. I can't imagine how that will look, though, cause everyone will think that I'm being punished, when I didn't do anything wrong, and now Blank is going to walk around like he's the shit, like he already does, and say whatever he wants to anyone with no consequence? What do you think happens when everyone sees that Blank has gone unpunished?" 

And the look on their two faces is a look money cannot buy. It had, obviously, not even crossed their minds to simply transfer Blank out of the store to a different store. Nobody's getting fired; you didn't demand Blank's firing, although he should and would be getting fired if the MEN managers "in charge" fucking did their JOBS!

You leave Number 1 and HR with exactly that last thought, "If the MODs and Number 2 had been doing their jobs, we wouldn't be here."

You clock out and go home. 

You go on with your life.

You think of all of the women who are dealing with actual physical predators.

You're dealing with a man who spoke words at you.

You cannot even imagine trying to fight this fight about a man who physically harmed you sexually or otherwise.

You also know that all of the Globeaux (Majority) jobbers (men and women alike) at your jobplace are watching you.

You wake up, and like you do, you end up glancing at your email before getting ready for the night, and there it is, an email from Number 1, "Blank will start working at a different store effective 07/15. Please do not talk about it with anyone until all parties are notified." 

You go on with your life. You have maybe two, three shifts tops left with this fucker. And on Friday (07/11), Number 2 asks you into the office, and informs you, in person, of Blank's situation, "Blank will no longer be working here," and you can tell that Number 2 is very nervous, either in your presence or about the situation, who can know for sure? You fake-smile from under your mask, "Great [better late than never, I suppose]! Thanks a lot [fucker!]," and you storm out of the office. You consider this to be "all parties involved" knowing. 

But you will not be speaking about Blank, for any reason, to anybody in the store. 

You know that Blank is going to go on some face-saving tour for the next two-to-three shifts, and you couldn't give two fucks about whatever spin he needs to put on this to make it all about him being awesome and you being some bitch, and thinking about this, this pathetic, desperate Loser-Manchild going around the store, unprompted, and telling everyone how terrible you are makes you feel, like, so fucking awesome. 

Blank is someone else's problem now, and if he's some future woman's problem, on the job, there's a hefty paper trail; you made sure of it. Men in this Man's World must be chipped away at. Most of them are too old to change, and some of them are on our side, but ALL of them lack the emotional/intellectual tools to support us. And so, yes, here we Women are still/again doing the suffering and the educating.

The saddest part of all of this is that Blank has a preteen daughter. 

In your opinion, all of the man MODs you've been forced to suffer should be removed for their blatant Sexism and covert Misogyny. What you failed to mention to HR, because they resolved the issue without a second in-person meeting, is that these men MODs actually called you into the office for being "insubordinate" to the main (white millennial man) MOD, at the time. You were training your new Number 2, and you had explained to her that if she hears, "Backup checker to the front," that she was exempt from this call, now that she is fully in your department, and that she only needed to answer direct pages if someone calls her by name. 

You had left a copy of these instructions on Number 1's desk, like you always do at the end of your shift, and the (white-man) MOD, at the time, read your notes, and he threw a tantrum like a three-year old fucktard, dragged ALL of the men MODs at the time AND Number 1 into the office to whine like a little bitch that you were undermining his authority. You calmly explained yourself, and refused to admit that you were undermining him, and you explained to Number 1 that your new Number 2 is used to being called up to check, but that that's not her role anymore, but if they're desperate for a backup checker at two in the morning, then they have to call her by name or she won't come up to check, because she won't know that she needs to, because she's not a checker anymore. You do not apologize, and you are dismissed. You find out a little later that the (white-man) MOD went home early; he was so upset, lol.

You also fail to mention to HR (another loaded and ready example of the gross incompetence running rampant throughout management) that the two new, young-non-union managers dragged you into the office, THEIR FIRST WEEK, to "talk to you" about a complaint they received about you from a homeless thief who you remember had come up to you yelling about how you were racially profiling him. You literally had not even seen the guy, but then he made such a big scene that the two young ones let him stroll out of the store, hands full of Spam cans. "The guy wants to call corporate," the young-woman one begins. "Great! Did you give him the store's number?" you ask. "Well, no. He said he didn't know your name," she goes on. "Oh, well, whenever a homeless thief complains, I always show them my name tag, and give them the store's number and tell them to call Number 1, anytime, after eight-a-m!" you state, sarcastically serious, making a big show of its seriousness. The young-woman one gets it and looks seriously embarrassed, while the young-man one tries his damndest to hid a giggle. You storm out of the office. 

The young-woman one needs her space to recalibrate, and you give it to her.

And then, while all of this fucking-Blank nonsense is unfolding, you learn that the young-woman one was treating you like a Union clerk based off of faulty information that she had somehow acquired about your role. The two of you were talking about how the young-man one was sent off to the Mainland to job the strike, and you mention that, "I'd love to be sent to Colorado!" And the young-woman one puts on airs as if she's about to break bad news, "Well, it's only for non-union managers." To which you respond with a glance over your shoulder at her, "I am non-union." And yet again, the look on her face is not one that can be bought with money.

In your then-on-going report, you definitely mention this to HR, as well. 

And the young-woman one needs her space, yet again, to recalibrate, and you happily give it to her; she must be just like, so, so embarrassed by this point.

You were expecting to have to deal with Blank at your jobplace one more time, yesterday, but by some miracle, he was not there. The email said that 07/15 was his official start date at his new location, but for whatever reason (why the fuck would you care?), the fucker is already gone.

[end note]

this is by no means a comprehensive recounting.

&this most-recent removal was the third person (two men, one woman) that i've had removed from the store in the two years that i've jobbed there

&i also had an sbux manager removed at the boulder, co, sbux (the second sbux location) that i jobbed at (the first sbux i jobbed at was managed by a [white-man] manager who was perfect [from my POV, if for whatever reason, some woman tells me otherwise, i will believe her and change my opinion about him, because as unbelievable as it seems to be for some men, men are actually capable of treating each individual differently, like duh], in syracuse, ny)

as women, the only thing you need to REMEMBER is to open your mouth and start a paper trail, immediately. 

the point is not to "win" some battle

the point is to chip away at the person (remember, men and women are equally sexist and misogynistic) who is the problem

you can start really small

&yes, it will feel really petty

&yes, you will feel bad about it, like you're doing something wrong cause you're "tattling" on someone

get over it

&REMEMBER

REMEMBER

REMEMBER

do not forget that this person is a misogynist

REMEMBER

you do not need to convince anyone with your first complaint

make the complaint

make it official

you can even admit that you're not sure how to read them

but this is how what they did/said made you FEEL

GET IT ON PAPER!

complain every time they do something that makes you uncomfortable

the rest will take care of itself

over time

chip, chip, chip away!

since i do not wish to give airtime to the assholes i've met

i am less enthused about writing more on the subject

however

if you have a specific question about how i really go about removing a toxic person

feel free to use the contact form in the left side-bar

if you need some help removing a misogynist

don't hesitate

i check email

all fucking day long

the fact that i had this experience about which this whole piece was written is also the reason why i actively encourage the young women i care about in my life to learn how to play POKER (texas hold'em, specifically) and to get good at it, because this is a Man's World in which we are currently trapped, and so, it is best to understand how "Men" think, which will only assist in navigating this World, as a Woman, in general.

also, i job for a Fortune 500 corporation.

i cannot imagine the jobbing environment around here for those who do not

UGH!